Friday, November 27, 2009

Charity Dance Show

Last night I went to watch a Charity Dance Show at Dewan Sri Pinang. Hui Ping has a friend who got us some free tickets so we went to watch it. The show is actually dance performances from different dance academies such as A la Pointe Ballet Academy and D'Vol Dance Theatre. It was not bad the dances but it was kinda almost the same. Contemporary dances, ballet and break dancing. The dances were almost the same and I was kind of expecting more of the dancers since I have seen pretty great moves in different occasions.

But for charity, the dances were pretty cool especially the break dances. They were pretty amazing especially those popping moves and the heart beating part, my favourite popping move...hehe...all because of the Neorago dance.

After that, a round of coffee and food for me at Coffee Island. I was hungry since I didn't eat any dinner so I wolfed down a plate of spaghetti...Yummy...haha. Talk and talk is what we always do. That night I think we were pretty loud like usual. Since I'm kinda used to the situation where everyone is staring like us because we are so loud most of the time, it didn't bother me at all....haha. 'LOUD,NOISY GANG' you know who you are. I actually find it comforting that we are laughing and talking so care freely as it is not often that I get to do it. So CHEERS to all of you. You guys are the best!!

Meanwhile, here's what I saw at the toilet door...Pretty interesting hor...


Friday, November 20, 2009

It's Complicated Isn't It?


Just have a sudden feeling of writing this down. Many of you have dated before, I assumed unlike me. How does a relationship start? Is it by phone messages or phone calls or even face to face asking? I’m really curious here. Will a girl accept dating a guy through phone messages? Or a guy asking a girl to be his girlfriend by a simple call? Where’s the sincerity in that? Of course if I don’t like you, even with there are 100 buds of roses in your hand I would probably say No too. Also, if you only knew someone for only awhile, would you ask? I know how relationships aren’t measured by time and how love can happen anytime.

BUT….I don’t think I can accept it. I know there’s this dramatic fantasy of falling in love on first sight which is very unlikely to happen in reality and while for me, I might consider myself in love with someone but I might not easily get into a relationship with him though. Or just maybe I’m commitment-phobic. The thoughts of me dating with someone just scoff me off. Not that I wouldn’t love to have someone always there for me to cheer for me and talk to. That is why I have a feeling I am going to remain single forever.

Not that I’m ever worried because I can live being single just fine which lead to the confusion that I am worried thinking why I’m not worried at all. Does any of this even make sense? Never mind me if you don’t understand. At least I understood what I said myself. Or maybe some crazy thought just got through my mind and I say “Yes!!” without thinking it through and the relationship works.That would have made all I have written totally bull but I guess we will never know till it happen right??

But I do want to fall in love. As in falling in love like a never-ending fall kind of fall. This is why I am steadfast in my decision to never settle for anything less than what I expect from a boyfriend. Some may think it’s ridiculous, yes I know I am but even so if I truly meet someone who would make me smile just by appearing in front of me or make my day just by a simple message, I wouldn’t want anything else. Seriously, I know that once you meet ‘The One’, all expectation on what you have on a guy would disappear. He maybe sloppy when you want a boyfriend that is neat and you wouldn’t even care because in the end you love him more than his bad points. At least that’s what my friend told me when it comes to her boyfriend. She ended up with him because somehow she is in love with him. I think that’s sweet though…hahaha.

Lately, I have been thinking a lot about this. I look at couples and I won’t say I’m not at least a bit jealous because I am. Feel like going “Awhhh….how cute” when I see couples but some are way over when it comes to PDA which at that time I will be going “Ewww…..” Save some actions for the indoors will you?

I feel like hitting myself on the head sometimes for reading too much romance novels, watching too much tear-jerking K-drama and J-drama and watching too much sappy romance movies. For all I know, dating isn’t all romance and as seen from friends that have dated, I can only assume love is part happiness and part misery. If you watch movies then you may have heard of the phrase “To love once is better than none at all”. It may be true but until I find someone to love, there’s always my family and friends who I love forever. So I guess, I’m in no hurry at all…but if there’s one appearing I don’t even mind if it’s right now...^_^


Wednesday, November 18, 2009



It comes and goes without count.

It stays when no one is around.

It makes me sad and down.

When there's no one to cheer me up or make me smile.

Loneliness is definitely not what that makes my world round.

But that's what life's all about.


You're Beautiful OST- Without Words

This song is really nice. You're Beautiful is really an interesting drama. I can't wait to watch more of it. The original singers are called 9th Streets I think. You can check it out at Youtube, You're Beautiful OST - Without Words (9th Street). Both versions are really nice. The lyrics of this song is really meaningful and kind of sad.

I shouldn't have done that,
I should have pretended not to know
like I didn't see it, like I couldn't see it
I shouldn't have looked at you in the first place

I should have run away,
I should have pretended I wasn't listening
like I didn't hear it, like I couldn't hear it
I shouldn't have heard your love in the first place

Without a word you made me know love
Without a word you gave me love
Because you took just a breath and ran away like this
Without a word love leaves me
Without a word love abandons me
Wondering what to say next, my lips were surprised
Because it came without a word.

This drama started to get my interest actually because of how cute Lee Hong Ki looks in the drama...haha....but after watching a few episodes, the drama has a really nice plot and the songs are really nice in A.N.JELL even if it's just a imaginary band. Can't wait for the whole drama.


Sunday, November 08, 2009

Good or Bad

Did you know lately I got addicted on Little Nyonya…Some people would know what I’m saying I assume. It’s actually a Singaporean drama series on the lives of nyonyas during the British and Japanese occupation. This series really shows how heartless some people would be. I guess where there is evil, goodness also prevails because there’s always the kind soul living in someone next to evil. Evil never prevails but why do good people always have to suffer? If that’s the case isn’t being the evil one easy to live.

I think it’s pretty true you know when people say that it is easy being the bad guy then being a good one. The good ones get killed or they suffer before they ever have a happy life. Sometimes good people rather suffer themselves rather than others suffering. I can never be good like some people can. I try to be when I can but to me there’s a limit to being all nice to people. I'm personally not that nice anyway.

Another drama series where the heroine is kind-hearted is Sam Ho三好 in Beyond The Realm of Conscience. One of the series that gets me hooked on to it too as it has one of my favourite actresses, Charmaine Cheh. How can someone be so nice and good even if it is a fictional character? Too good can lead to all troubles sometimes but being bad doesn’t mean you don’t get retribution back at you. I guess when it comes to being a good or a bad guy; it’s up to you which character you want to be. The most you can do is at least live up to yourself and do what your heart thinks is right. At least that’s what I think…

Thursday, November 05, 2009

The Exam Season

As right now is the exam season, there’s really nothing much to do at all. What can I do besides studying, online, sleeping or eating? Go jalan at Kangar?? Nahh…..there’s nothing much there anyway.

I can’t blog as often as I do lately as the uni blocks the BlogSpot posting somehow. If I want I can spend my money at the cybercafé. Hey it’s only RM 1.50 per hour and unlimited and unblocked access to any freaking website I want. Not that I have any website to go too besides playing Facebook, watching YouTube, reading Korean entertainment news and reading fan fiction on the net, I doubt I really do much on the internet. Basically what I usually do online is go to the Suju Wordpress that has lots of Suju News and the TVXQ fan blog…DBSK Knights. Cos I’m obsessed with Suju and TVXQ, all I do most of the time I go online has to do with them…hahaha. Yes obsessed is the word I would use because I am addicted to them…my DH and LT are simply too cute to resist and JJ and YH are just melting my heart…^_^

Yeah now I’m wasting my time surfing the net but I got tired of revising which I never do until it comes to the last minute and I am a fan of burning the midnight oil. Not that I’m burning any oil at midnight now (Not Palm oil, coconut oil, cooking oil, baby oil or corn oil…Ignore me I’ve going wacko *_*) Times like this is more like burning the fluorescent light and burning UniMAP’s money on electrical bils…Ngek ngek ngek..

Math exam just passed recently. It turns out I’m really not a Math person. No matter how I try I can’t seem to get Math. Simple math like 2+2=4 is easy but when it comes to those with bombastic formulas, I will be the 1st to raise a white flag. Maybe I’m not trying hard enough but since it’s the LAST time I’m going to take a math paper in UniMAP and hopefully one I don’t have to retake I would gladly say goodbye to Engineering Math. Adieu Math…Sayonara…Chao…拜拜….please don’t come back ever again!!

Only 3 core papers left. Gotha put my head in the game. I’m going to make the best out of nothing again. Make a miracle…aim for 3.7 (Like that’s going to happen this sem…-_-|| but well got to keep the faith anyway…) Crapping again so I’m going to end this…To dear Kiddies can’t wait to see all of you in Penang..Jya…

Without wax,