Days of my life....in school

School play an important role in all of our life.....we grow up in school and it has become our second home. Going to school for almost all of your life, you will feel like you have left something really important behind when you leave your alma-mater. It's where you share your feelings with friends, it's where you meet friends, learn more and understand more. Finally, it's time to leave school. After 13 years in school and more than half of my life, it's like losing a part of your heart. I feel like I have been going to school all my life. Lessons taught and lessons learn....there's still a lot to be learn but we have learn a lot from school. From my dearest primary school SK Batu Lanchang to high school St. George's Girl School...I've always been one never to be absent from school....you can see me in school whether rain or shine or in sickness or in health. I am always going to school...why you say...it's because I want to savour the moments I have in school. To be able to appreciate what the school could give to me and what I could give in return. To be able to think back and remember that I didn't miss a single thing in my school lfe. From Standard 1 to 6 then to form 1 to 5 then going to Form Six.....some people think Form Six is a bad choice but I think it's a great choice. I think going back for Form 6 turn out to be a good decision and is a great experience I will never regret....I had a lot of fun these past two years in Form six...met a lot of new friends and learn a lot more of life. I have studied....yes I did studied something, learn more of chemistry, physics, pengajian am and maths (still not really good at some of them) It was hard work yet I had a great time with all my friends and treasured those times we had- all the toilet trips, jokes, recess, club activities, performing at school (those dancing and singing is something I never thought I would have the chance to do in school) chit-chatting, exam woes and lot's and lot's of laughters....Last days of school were spend on having fun without worrying that STPM examinations is coming (thinking of it is giving me goosebumps...so I don't want to think of it now) Taking lots of pictures to remind us of the times we had and writing lots of notes and biodatas for people to be remember us.....something to treasure forever......Form Six turn out to be a weird yet fun kind of experience....whether it is having a REMUP day or Majlis Mohon Restu (some sort of blessing ceromony in Vistana...the school's rich we do this in the hotel and get to have a buffet lunch..it wasn't nice though) or having days of stressed out examination blues or events such as Sports Day, Prize-Giving Day or Foodfair.......or Glamorous Graduation Night..they are all things to be remembered......teachers helped out a lot. Whether it is the very hardworking fast-paced talking chemistry teacher Pn. Thoo or sleepy Maths classes with Pn. Muminah or droosy yet important classes with fashionable Pn. Ling, our Physics teacher...all of them are there for one purpose and one purpose only...to educate us and help us in succeeding in the future...thank you teachers very very much. I'll miss my school years but one have to grow up and find a way to return all those that teachers have once taught us to those who need them.
Friends thank you for sharing all those times with me....forgive me if I ever hurt you guys in anyway what so ever.....To my best buddies in school...Hui Ping, Mei Ling, Hui Ting, Jolyn, Phei Chuin, Wen Shan, Loo Wen, Wan Yin, Li Ling, Elora, Cavina, Melanie, Janice and everyone else thank you for being there to share these times with me....you guys are the best...I had a lot of fun...Hui Ping and Hui Ting, my best friends who shared the same passion with me with Leehom, Mei Ling with her sarcastic yet always true personality, Wen Shan who always make jokes that make people laugh and thanks for sharing those NS experiences with me, Janice who always blush, Loo Wen and Wan Yin who are always talking about anime and Japanese or Koreans, Elora and Cavina who are always so nice to people, Phei Chuin my car-pool buddy and my listener to my worries, Jolyn with her funny cute antics and craze for TVXQ and a bunch of very funny people who lighten up my life with your presence in it....nothing makes life sweeter and special than sharing it with you guys. You guys taught me to live life my way...
Form Six makes me a lot stronger.....I'm more passionate about life thanks to it....I learn to be more courageous in doing things like singing in Georgian Idol or dancing for Hari Remup. I learn how to lead as the president of Librarians in school or the president of Science Club. I learn to control traffic...hehe in my days as traffic warden...I learn to think outside the box and appreciate life. I learn that friendship can be found anywhere and is unbiased to whether age or race....I love school...I'm proud to say I LOVE SGGS......from our clock tower to our red blazing school colour to weird school funtions to annoying red-skirts prefects(no offense to my red-skirted friends) to my days as a librarian ( surrounded with books and learning to organise them...I love the smell of new books) to traffic duty in school (the chance to control the school traffic is like power to me...I can stop you from moving if I want to...hahahaha)to simply my class L6S1/U6S1. ..(my very romantic pink-peach painted class in 2006 and very dull white painted, spacious air-conditioned class yet humid and hot class because we are not allow to on the air-con class class in 2007) My beloved school, I'll be leaving soon...soon you'll be missing a very important student...ME....I shall miss it really...To never have a chance to wear a pinafore again or sit in a classroom in school or wear a nametag or running to recess or morning assembly (okay that I don't really think I will miss) or singing the school anthem or claiming marks from teachers....I'm gonna so miss it...St.George St.George will ever proclaim...honour and uphold you forever praise your name....Aut Viam Inveniam Aut Faciam. (if there's a will, there's always a way) SGGS I love you...and thank you for everything...

(REMUP day 2007...crazy bunch of girls..)
(Majlis Mohon Restu in Vistana Hotel)
(Yeah...my best buddies...)
( The old L6S1 class which is painted pink...my fellow classmates)
(Teachers and friends) (L6S1 again..) ( Hari Remup 2006....in the laman koperasi....)

Everything that has been going on...

I haven't been updating for weeks...blame it on laziness. Exam is only 4 weeks away but here I am having plenty of fun when I haven't even finish my bloody studying....I'm so stressed up that I can't seem to concentrate on doing anything that has to do with exams...now I'm also thinking what I'm going to do after my exams...what's next? I don't bloody know that....I'm so freaked out by the whole thing and I'm so going to need to stop whining and grow up. I screwed up big time in the trial examination you know...I've got 2 C's and 2A's.....Almost failed my chemistry which has come as a shock to me considering I'm so fond of it yet unable to score....Need all the time I have to study instead all I do is....have fun...

The past two days all I ever did was have fun....On Friday I went to a religious procession. It's actually called I think The Nine Heavenly Gods Festival...I was a vegetarian for nine days for the festival.....for someone who don't usually eat vegetables to eat them for nine days was pretty much a feat...okay I have been doing it for a few years now so it wasn't really anything. As a matter of fact, I enjoyed eating vegetarian food this year. The procession is nearly the same every year. I took pictures of the procession this year. Basically we are sending the gods back to the place the belong after we worshipped them (I think...) we are sending them back to sea ust like we have invited them to land during the first day...I heard from my uncle that these gods we prayed to are actually humans, a long time ago who were some sorts of pirates who steal from the rich and give it to the poor (some sort like Robin Hood eh..) some emperor ordered them beheaded when they were caught at sea because of course for stealing....so we believe that their souls still exist at sea and we pray to them.

The procession

The ship for the gods

The vehicle decorated with flowers

Then the next day, I went to a Raya open house....This is actually I think the first time I went to a Hari raya Aidilfitri open house. I ate quite a lot of food and cookies and cakes. The cookies were delicious and the cakes were really good.The open house was actually at USM by the Vice Cansellor of USM...his daughter, Suriani was one of my friends....The food was really nice and of course the house was really big and well decorated. I'm a bit envious of the ornaments there as it shows the places they travelled to and the books there are a lot. I wish I could travel to a lot oif places when I grow older.

Look ate the layer cake...it get's you mouth-watering

The cookies in the jars..

See how intricated the cake is made...the details are amazing. A lot of effort just to make the cake

Happy Birthday To ME!!!!! Haha...

Yep...its my birthday....the 21st of September.....my feeling today contrasts to my feelings on Tuesday so much. I finally calmed down after accepting the fact that I'm a sore loser and don't take failure well......Well, today's my birthday and I feel so much better. I woke up thinking "Hey it's my birthday..." I'm really honoured a lot of people remembered my birthday....those who sent those midnight smses...thank you...Those who sang birthday songs for me...thanks and of course to all those presents and angpau....thank you very much....I had a great time today.....at school a lot of people wished me Happy Birthday.....during recess I think was most shocking, my friends at school took out a brthday cake and sang in the canteen a Happy Birthday song...I ate cheesecake...yummy my favourite.....Wan Yin gave me a jelly mooncake as a gift really nice...

My mom bought home a walnut cake and creampuffs and cheese tarts for me on my sweet 19th birthday and.....oh I think I have died and gone to heaven.....but gosh all those food is really fattening....fattening but definitely heavenly haha.....In the evening I went to Hui Ting's house for a swim...I love swimming....We swam and kid around.....Once again another birthday cake and guess what...it's a cheesecake....It's really delicious and they (Hui Ting, Hui Ping, Siaw Ping, Juin and Jane) prepared pizzas, jellies, chocolates and chicken.....fattening but delicious....It was really sweet of them and they gave me a present as well....I had fun....we sang karaoke style and talked about almost everything....from primary school to now.....I think I laughed a lot today....I was happy and well that made me forget about exams and everything else....what's life without friends.......I'll never survive without them....Everyone that I want to wish me Happy Birthday did and I'm so happy no one forgot about it....Thank you so much to everyone and my birthday wish this year is that I hope everyone will always have happiness in their lives and stay happy always...

My birthday cake....

Food...food...It's yummy yet sinful...hehe

So, Happy Birthday To Me!!!!!!!!!! (It's over already...it has already passed 2 in the morning...)

September...a month of woes or joy???

This is definitely not my month this year....I always love September the most of all the months simply because it's my favourite month and it's the month of my birthday....This year I hate it. I hate it because I screwed up everything. I hate it because I am such a failure this month. I hate it because I'm failing my exams. I hate it because I know I could have done better. I have it because I didn't try my best. I hate this...Never have I despised myself so much for failing my exams...it's clearly because I was lazy and while others were striving to get better results I was sleeping all the times and not really concentrating. I hate myself for being such a moron this month...Maybe all this while for being a moron... Chemistry is my favourite subject since Form 4 but I never really done well in chemistry yet I really like it...but now I did so badly in it I just want to give up...I did so badly in all the subjects I feel I am just not good enough in this...I really want to give up now you know....I've studied for almost a year and a half in Form Six but I feel I haven't done anything here that I really think is worth it. But Form Six is a chance to go to a local university and I can't afford anything else unless I can get a scholorship which is only possible with good results...with results like mine where can I go?? Futhermore, it's a chance to prove to myself that I am good at something....that I'm good at something......I'm capable of doing something yet it seems I didn't put all my effort in and I'm so fed up of myself...so fed up with my own attitude. I take things like it is nothing yet it is something. I'm so tired of being so cheerful all the time being so optimistic...I really don't want to do this anymore...I just want to cry......I feel like crying yet I can't cry. Sometimes I just want to close my eyes and never wake up......I can't do this anymore. There's just two months left...two bloody months to exams and I'm not even prepared to face it...Let's just face the truth that I'm not smart...I'm not clever.....I'm just lazy and stupid someone who thinks she's good nut she's otherwise....Gosh I feel like dying....my heart is breaking and I feel so so down.....Life isn't all that smooth isn't it...... There's no use in stopping now....never do things in half measures.....I'm going to try but I don't what this would come to......how it would end....I just how I can try to improve myself and have more self-discipline in studying....I just wish I can concentrate and do this......

Rain...rain and keep on raining...

It's been raining for three or more days....if this continues I think a lot of places will be flooded.... I went out yesterday and well it rained too. Went to Queensbay Mall to watch a concert...it's free so I thought I'll check it out....My friend, Hui Ting drove us, four of us me,Hui Ping, Renae and herself there and we went in the mall for a meal.....first we were thinking of having McD but well since it is a Saturday evening and there's a concert going to start outside the mall, the place was pratically crowded with people. Then we decided to have dinner at Sakae Sushi.....it's a Japanese restaurant...this is actually my second time to a Japanese restaurant.... I'm pretty stingy so normally I won't go to restaurants to eat... The restaurant was cool very classy....the meal cost around RM 20...so it wasn't really that expensive as I first thought it is....the food is quite nice....I ate salmon.....salmon rice and salmon sushi...I love salmon fish I don't know why.....We took a walk around the mall window shopping......then we went out to the concert, only three of us as Renae took off shopping for clothes...she came back for the weekend from her Unversity in Perak and went out with us...it stopped raining when we went out....Power Station a Taiwanese duo started the concert...they have really good voices and well they have been in the industry for 10 years so it isn't a surprised at how good they sang....then came the Malaysian singers from The Superstar show....compared to Power Station they were really very bad...I think they are more to the looks than talent...although they don't really look that good as well.....the ironic thing is that when Power Station started the show it didn't rain but as soon as some really untalented singers come out, it starts to rain....this actually goes on again and again until the end of the concert....There were a few really talented singers in the concert such as Soler, from Macau....very handsome both singers from Soler.....also Gary Chow Ge.....he was amazing....his voice was incredible and he's a Malaysian....very few Malaysian singers have good voices and he is one of them.....I really was awed at his performance....he actually sang My Way, an English duet song alone singing the male part and the female part all by himself...and he really was super super great....then we also have Lin Yu Chong...he was really good too...I like his voice as it is really soothing....we also have Justin, Chak Tin from Hong Kong...he was preety good also....I had a great time under the rain watching the concert although some parts of the concert were spoiled by singers who sang quite badly.....the rain started quite heavily at one moment in the concert and we borrowed an umbrella from a few concert wacthers beside us....at one point we even took the banner advertisement from the concert and shield ourselves from the rain with it....it was pretty stupid and funny I know but it all seems really fun doing that.... when it is time to went back...well it was very jammed....we couldn't even come out of the carpark...we were stuck in a jam at the carpark for almost 45 minutes...everyone wants to go home after the concert and it was really jammed...Imagine being stuck in your car for 45 minutes waiting to get out of the carpark which we only were at the third floor...that's really a long time isn't it...but that's how it is.... It's still raining now...I think it won't stop till tomorrow...hopeful it will stop soon or disaster will happen....

Photos of Convo

Pictures From My Mom's Convocation In Tanjung Malim, Perak
(The one I couldn't download last week...idiotic computer..)

My parents and me at my mom's convo in Perak



My mom and me at her uni...UPSI



Don't I look cute in graduation robes...but I'm not even in uni yet..

The rose is nice right.....I look like a tango dancer with the red rose...haha

Balloons....yeah...it's time to party...oops Graduate...


See a graduation teddy bear...so kawaii!!

Isn't the little girl cute.....she looks so sweet and angelic...but with a skeleton on her blouse....ironic...hehehe


My dad....hehehe...don't he look funny in the hat...haha


Look at the flowers......so nice...too bad they die fast...


Oh ya Happy 50th Independence Day, Malaysia......Merdeka! Merdeka! Merdeka!!!!......it's tomorrow, our beloved country's independence day.....the 31st of the month...Month of August 1957...Liberty, liberty forever liberty....and remember to watch the parade on tv....my school band is in the parade performance too....haha

A trip to Tanjong Malim...for convocation

This Monday which was the 20th August 2007, I went to Tanjong Malim for my mom's convocation...yes my MOM....you did not read it wrongly...my mom has graduated from the Masters' programme.....I think that's what it is called....Masters in English Language Education...she's a English teacher.....the trip there was bloody boring and FYI there is nothing in Tanjong Malim...besides the Universiti Pendidikan Sultan Idris...my mom's uni and Proton City (where Proton cars are made) there is nothing in the town....really quiet town unlike Penang with big malls and bustling with activities and people.....there it's kind of more quiet and well since it is so near to the highway...lot's of big jumbo size lorries passing by so if there is noise then tha's vehicles only........I spend a night there in one of the hotels...it's called Hotel Bunga Raya...I couldn't sleep.....it was so near the roads and the vehicles passing by were so so noisy I can't stand it....We stayed there a night and the next morning is my mom's convo....

My dad and I....(only us both...my brother couldn't make it) bought my mom a bouquet of roses with a real cute teddy bear with a graduation hat.....but it was bloody expensive, it cost RM 50 and it was only 6 roses you know....but the flowers were really beautiful...I couldn't resist...who knew flowers were so so lovely...the roses, sunflowers and lilies...gosh they were beautiful...and there's the cute teddy bears...so adorable...I even took a pic of a cute little girl wearing a graduation hat...hehe...then there's this incident...I think it was kind of ridiculous. I was going to enter the hall where my mom's convo is held and I was stopped by the person in charge of letting us the friends and families of the graduates in......it is really idiotic of her, she actually don't alloy me to get in...you know why...because she thinks my skirt was too short and in her term "impolite"...bloody ****.....my skirt was knee length...okay maybe an inch or two above knee length and that's impolite?? I dressed up for my mom's convo with a blouse and a skirt and she said I was dressed up impolitely....to hell with her.....then she allows me to go in and you know what she told me...she told me to sit next to the thick wall so that nobody can see I'm wearing the skirt...it's really funny how some people think...reallly...

My mom's graduation ceremony was so long...I didn't know that it could be that long....at least I get to see the Queen and Princess of Perak....they were really beautiful especially the princess. Overall the trip was a mind opening trip...it shown me how some people are so unreasonable and what a convacation is all about.....many relatives are there to see their sons or daughters graduate.....seeing people wearing those graduation hats make me think when I will have a chance to really wear it....I tried my mom's clothes though hehehe...it's kinda weird on me though hahaha......I took some pictures...I think I took pictures of practically everything I think is interesting...but right now I can't put the pic up

I also just realised the government really takes a lot of toll money....every stop at the toll is really costly......I wonder what they do with the money???.......then there's this construction on the highway...the workers work so slowly you know and they block partically half the road but don't do anything....it's so stupid and lazy of this people......and the government pays them for nothing....they spend days doing construction on these roads yet nothing is really completed yet....totally stupid....