STPM results are coming out....and I'm dying....

(Crazy girls comes in a bunch)
(The cute pink rabbit is freaking out the green rabbit...haha)
(From left: Phei Chuin, Hui Ping, Wen Shan, Mei Ling, Elora)
( Me and Yu Jean)

( Friends attending the party)

Just recently we had a pre STPM party ( Pics up above)...that's what I called the party...My friends say it's a party but all they talked about mostly that night was getting their results and where they are heading after that....it's a party we have to chill out....Since now we can't anymore...Well it's pre STPM party alright as STPM results are coming out in 4 days....ARghhhhh!!!! I'm not freaking out....I'm prepared actually to face the music...I've gotten ready to face the sentence for not studying and not preparing enough for STPM. I've prepared myself for the worst and try not to think too much. But what do you call this....this sense of wondering what will happen next Tuesday at 12pm (when the results are coming out)....maybe I am freaking out...and I'm thinking too much alright....I'm thinking what I might get and what will happen, how to face my mother after I got the results, wondering whether I will cry after getting the results, worrying I couldn't afford to futher my studies to some uni I like, wondering how to face people asking what I've gotten and thinking what I can study with my meager results...I'm FREAKING out BIG time alright!!!!!

This afternoon I went to fill up some petrol in my car....I don't know what happen but somehow after paying for the pewtrol and a newspaper, I walked back to my car and well forgot to fill up. I actually drove away without filling up first. Can you believe it??? I actually forgot to fill up....I don't know what happen....it's like my mind was somewhere far and wasn't with me at all....I can't believe I didn't remember either...Was I thinking too much at that time....Time seems to be zooming by and I'm in a daze...I don't know what happen....I'm actually freaking out....ME freaking out when I have taken a few public exams before?? There's one more thing. When we take the results we actually have to wear the very very ugly t-shirt the school provided us...come on it's two size too big for me...the designs are hideous and it's long sleeved...I totally hated it....This is actually too much of the school... Seriously I have to wear it or not get my results...How evil is that???

Happy Chinese New year...it's been awhile...

Yes, it's definitely been awhile since I updated my blog. I was too lazy to blog...what to do when the laziness strikes...Let's start from the beginning. January 12th, I went to Juin's house to watch a pre-recorded concert of LeeHom then we went for some dinner...in town eating koay teow soup and leng chee kang for dessert. Then we went to Haagen-Dazs (I hope I spelled it correctly). I never been to Haagen-Dazs before for the past 19 plus plus years of my life. My first time eating the famous Haagen-Dazs ice-cream. Frankly speaking, I'm someone who is really stingy and well around 20 bucks for an ice-cream would probably scream "Don't You Dare Eat It" but hey, there's always a first time for everything, so I tried it. We ordered a Chocolate fondue which is for more people and less money (remember the stingy girl here...it seems like a really great idea). It was yummy especially for me as I am a big big big fan of chocolate which is why my waistline is getting big big big too.

(Haagen Dazs Chocolate Fondue....yummy!!!)
( Me and We Ping at the entrance of Golden Gate)
(Inside the Golden Gate Restaurant)


We did some stuff past this month. Not much since everyone is pretty busy...some of us are working (me, Hui Ping and Hui Ting), some studying (Siaw Ping, Jane, Juin, Wei Ping) We spend less time together but we try to go out as much as possible. Last week I even went to a steamboat dinner with all of them. Juin invited us to dinner with her family at Golden Gate which is a steamboat restaurant for Chinese new Year on the third day of New Year which was the 9th of February. It was pretty fun...we bought her family a hamper to thank them for inviting us. Later we went clubbing.Clubbing you say...this is only the second time I decided to join Hui Ting and Siaw Ping for clubbing. I'm not much of the clubbing kind since I detest smoking and clubs are pratically filled with smoke from cigarettes and you'll smell so digusting when you go home when you find out your whole clothes are smelly. This time it was better than last time but the club we went to was pretty crowded...actually very crowded. We went to Mois...pretty cool that we get to get in the club without having to line up as some of our friends have 'contacts' inside. We were all dressed up and dolled up with make-up...not really actually. We got to the make-up part only when we arrived there in our car and did make-up in the car. I danced more this time since I was wearing flat shoes and not heels like last time which hurt my feet badly. I had fun...was much better than the first time...although I don't really like drinking beer. Vodka with coke taste so much nicer.

(The entrance of Mois..pretty cool huh)
(Inside the club...it's a bit too dark for my cam..so you can see hardly anything)



Chinese New Year was on the 7th of February and like years before, I woke up and took a bath...wear some new outfit and off we go to collect angpows....what are angpows...well basically there are red coloured packets with money in it. It's a tradition these days for the married people to give some lovely red packets to those unmarried. Count yourself lucky if you are single and unmarried cos you'll be getting them...I went up to Tanjung Bungah which is where I lived years ago when I was just a little kid. (That's where my father's side of my family lives)
Exchange oranges and red packets. Eat some cookies and drink some chrysanthemum tea and talk. Then visit Rifle Range Flats where my mom's family reunites mostly. Chinese New Year (CNY) is all about reunion and reminiscence. Family and friends gather to have reunions and celebrate. This year CNY seems less important (still important just less a bit)to me....when I was a kid, I anxiously wait for this time of the year to get angpau but lately since I'm more grown-up, I look less forward to it. Considering you have to spend expenses on celebrating CNY like cleaning up the house and decorating it with anything red and bright or buying new clothes or buying drinks, oranges and food for people who visits. Don't get me wrong I still like CNY very much. Afterall, when do you experience more festive and happy celebration than CNY....there's fireworks everywhere, lion dancing, people laughing, gambling (yes, we play poker, mahjong and all kinds of card games), eating, talking, and a lot of noises. There's lots of praying to the Gods involved too. There's the praying to the Kitchen God before the CNY starts or the prayers on the birthday of the Jade emperor on the 9th day of the new year which is actually held midnight of the 8th day. Mostly only Hokkien and Teochew prays on the day and since I'm of each half, I celebrate too. This is actually probably even more festive than the first day of CNY as you can see everyone setting up altars to pray to the Jade Emperor and burning of incense and papers and the very loud noises of firecrackers everywhere. Come to think of it, I really like Chinese New Year....especially when I win a few quick ringgits in playing mahjong or cards with my cousin...haha. There's still Chap Goh Meh, the fifteen night and the last day we celebrate CNY. It is said that throwing oranges into the sea will bring you a suitor if you are single. ( I think it is pretty ridiculous these days as I imagine the sea being dirty and it is dark at night no one is going to see the oranges you throw into the sea and you probably would just pollute the sea more. This kind of thing are much more suited in the past) Anyway the government has banned the tradition too. The government banned fireworks but hey you still see fireworks on festivals don't you? Maybe some really desperate love-sick girls will try and throw some oranges just for luck....try writing your phone number and name and stick it on the orange will make whoever who found the orange find you quicker....hehe. Happy Chinese New Year again and may this year bring good health and prosperity to everyone. Oh, happy belated Valentine's Day too. It's meaningless to me as I don't even have a valentine. But to those lovers out there...all the best in your relationships and Happy Valentine's Day...


(The praying to the Jade emperor...the altar and offerings)


(The burning of papers to the Gods)

Before I forget all about Kulim, I want to write it down. I visited Kulim this year on the 2nd day of CNY and got more angpows...that's one of the main reason I follow my mom and grandma to visit relatives in Kulim...for their angpows. I didn't know Kulim has modernised so much as I haven't visited Kulim for years. I didn't even know Kulim is where St. Anne's Church and Santuary is. It was such a huge area and looks so majestic and beautiful. Kulim has really beautiful houses....bangalow and semi-detached houses that would cost at least RM 200 thousand in Penang can be found at a price less. We went through Taman Perda which has really nice houses. Even though Kulim has some modern houses, it still have huge areas of plantation such as palm oil plantation and vegetable farm. I even saw a few chicken and duck farms....the trip was worth the time after all since I get to see temples and churches, farms and buildings...It was nice to see difeerent places beside my dear old Penang. After all, I'm such a small town girl who knows nothing and it's good to learn more about different places.

News of me this past month...and today...YIPPEE

It's a brand new year...The year 2008....Having been updating for more than a month...It's all due to laziness and writers block...haha...I can't seems to write what I wanted to (I know I'm not exactly a writer but I always wanted to use that word...hehe) No more school for me as Form Six is over... It feels really weird not going to school...Kinda miss it...I miss all my friends and the non-stop chatting in class...hahaha... Just what people always say...You don't miss it until you lose it...


(Christmas tree at Queensbay Mall, Christmas lights at the centre dome of Queensbay and a very cute tree with windmills at New World)

The final month of 2007 pass by like a breeze....Christmas Day...took a few Christmas tree photos simply because they were really nice. I didn't do much during the holidays. Basically I was lazying around like a pig (no offense to the pig), playing online games, surfing the net, watching tv and eat sleep eat sleep. Well I did go out with my friends for a movie. Not on Christmas of course since it's so bloody jammed on that day and it's eve.
(Makan-makan at Secret Recipe after watching National Treasure 2)(1st pic, Hui Ping, Wen Shan and Elora, clockwise direction... 2nd pic..it's Jolyn and last pic my chocolate cheesecake...yummy...can you tell that I really love to eat)

Oh ya, I even went to watch a movie under the stars....pretty cool....It was fun watching Transformers sitting in a middle 0f Esplanade's field eating rojak and snacks while watching the movie.
(The ticket to The movies Under The Star)

Can't really remember much what I did the past holidays...nothing much basically.....but I did watch a couple of really good movies like Enchanted ( It was really romantic and funny...with all those songs...lalalala you feel like singingggg) and National Treasure 2 (didn't want to see it at first but it was good, the movie was pretty funny and exciting) Then on New Year's eve, I went to a barbecue...yummy I ate a lot...prawns, fish, crabs, chicken, sausages and lamb chop. It was really delicious. I even when over to Hui Ping's house as she also have a small gathering at her place and I ate even more there. Like sushi, satay, ice cream, peanuts, tidbits and I even drank wine and beer...just a few sips though...I don't really like the taste as I know what they taste like already...drank it before a few times...Well I guess I'm more of the plain water kinda girl. So now the new year 2008, currently I'm working...as a librarian in my mom's school (my mom's a high school teacher) It doesn't pay much only RM 760 but it's fine. I get holidays like on normal school days so it's okay... just that I really want the money as soon as possible...I want to spend them on more Chinese New Year clothes....yes CNY is coming and I don't really have much... So I'm needing the $$$$ to help me buy new outfits.

Right now i'm still in my nightie pajamas at 10.50a.m sitting in front of the computer blogging away. But guess what just happen like 1/2 hour ago ?? A postmen just called at my door...he's not any postmen....he's Santa Claus...hahaha...so not.....but he is definitely a bearer of good stuff. I WON !!!!!! I won a prize...1st prize for the Enchanted/ Galaxie contest....I'm so happy and was so shocked when I open the letter. It's nothing grand not like I won a trip to the Disneyland or anything but I actually won one limited edition Enchanted bracelet watch. Okay maybe the watch isn't that nice but still I won something...I remember the last time I won some stuff...you know I won a Shrek plastic file a few months ago....I'm still shocked but happy I won something. I'm putting up the photo of the prize...hehe...

( Isn't the box just so so nice...and of course the Enchanted bracelet watch)

It's over.....

STPM is over...finally over...I am relieved it is over yet can't help but feeling a bit remorse thinking I should have done more for my STPM examinations. I know I could have done better if I had studied earlier. That's why I said no last minute studying. Sadly I never learn from my mistakes. Regrets filled my mind but really it's no use crying over spilled milk now. I guess I should think for the future and plan what I really want to do next. Besides, the results are not yet out......perhaps just perhaps my results would turn out well?? Okay maybe that's wishful thinking but one can do naught but hope. Right now, I just want to relax and not think for a while. Right now I just want to be selfish and think for the present. Have fun and enjoy myself....rest and be happy that's all. Because I know sooner or later I will have to face the truth that nothing will work out if I don't put in an effort. I really am envious of some of my friends who score well in exams always but I know that's because they work hard for it...they give their best in it...While me I try my best too...it's just that I feel that I wasn't as hardworking as they are and I really feel guilty for it...I guess what I'm trying to say is I really am sorry for not doing all I can from the start of Form Six but I tried my best to do what I can in order to at least try my best. So now all I can do is cross my fingers and hope for the very very best......

Days of my life....in school

School play an important role in all of our life.....we grow up in school and it has become our second home. Going to school for almost all of your life, you will feel like you have left something really important behind when you leave your alma-mater. It's where you share your feelings with friends, it's where you meet friends, learn more and understand more. Finally, it's time to leave school. After 13 years in school and more than half of my life, it's like losing a part of your heart. I feel like I have been going to school all my life. Lessons taught and lessons learn....there's still a lot to be learn but we have learn a lot from school. From my dearest primary school SK Batu Lanchang to high school St. George's Girl School...I've always been one never to be absent from school....you can see me in school whether rain or shine or in sickness or in health. I am always going to school...why you say...it's because I want to savour the moments I have in school. To be able to appreciate what the school could give to me and what I could give in return. To be able to think back and remember that I didn't miss a single thing in my school lfe. From Standard 1 to 6 then to form 1 to 5 then going to Form Six.....some people think Form Six is a bad choice but I think it's a great choice. I think going back for Form 6 turn out to be a good decision and is a great experience I will never regret....I had a lot of fun these past two years in Form six...met a lot of new friends and learn a lot more of life. I have studied....yes I did studied something, learn more of chemistry, physics, pengajian am and maths (still not really good at some of them) It was hard work yet I had a great time with all my friends and treasured those times we had- all the toilet trips, jokes, recess, club activities, performing at school (those dancing and singing is something I never thought I would have the chance to do in school) chit-chatting, exam woes and lot's and lot's of laughters....Last days of school were spend on having fun without worrying that STPM examinations is coming (thinking of it is giving me goosebumps...so I don't want to think of it now) Taking lots of pictures to remind us of the times we had and writing lots of notes and biodatas for people to be remember us.....something to treasure forever......Form Six turn out to be a weird yet fun kind of experience....whether it is having a REMUP day or Majlis Mohon Restu (some sort of blessing ceromony in Vistana...the school's rich we do this in the hotel and get to have a buffet lunch..it wasn't nice though) or having days of stressed out examination blues or events such as Sports Day, Prize-Giving Day or Foodfair.......or Glamorous Graduation Night..they are all things to be remembered......teachers helped out a lot. Whether it is the very hardworking fast-paced talking chemistry teacher Pn. Thoo or sleepy Maths classes with Pn. Muminah or droosy yet important classes with fashionable Pn. Ling, our Physics teacher...all of them are there for one purpose and one purpose only...to educate us and help us in succeeding in the future...thank you teachers very very much. I'll miss my school years but one have to grow up and find a way to return all those that teachers have once taught us to those who need them.
Friends thank you for sharing all those times with me....forgive me if I ever hurt you guys in anyway what so ever.....To my best buddies in school...Hui Ping, Mei Ling, Hui Ting, Jolyn, Phei Chuin, Wen Shan, Loo Wen, Wan Yin, Li Ling, Elora, Cavina, Melanie, Janice and everyone else thank you for being there to share these times with me....you guys are the best...I had a lot of fun...Hui Ping and Hui Ting, my best friends who shared the same passion with me with Leehom, Mei Ling with her sarcastic yet always true personality, Wen Shan who always make jokes that make people laugh and thanks for sharing those NS experiences with me, Janice who always blush, Loo Wen and Wan Yin who are always talking about anime and Japanese or Koreans, Elora and Cavina who are always so nice to people, Phei Chuin my car-pool buddy and my listener to my worries, Jolyn with her funny cute antics and craze for TVXQ and a bunch of very funny people who lighten up my life with your presence in it....nothing makes life sweeter and special than sharing it with you guys. You guys taught me to live life my way...
Form Six makes me a lot stronger.....I'm more passionate about life thanks to it....I learn to be more courageous in doing things like singing in Georgian Idol or dancing for Hari Remup. I learn how to lead as the president of Librarians in school or the president of Science Club. I learn to control traffic...hehe in my days as traffic warden...I learn to think outside the box and appreciate life. I learn that friendship can be found anywhere and is unbiased to whether age or race....I love school...I'm proud to say I LOVE SGGS......from our clock tower to our red blazing school colour to weird school funtions to annoying red-skirts prefects(no offense to my red-skirted friends) to my days as a librarian ( surrounded with books and learning to organise them...I love the smell of new books) to traffic duty in school (the chance to control the school traffic is like power to me...I can stop you from moving if I want to...hahahaha)to simply my class L6S1/U6S1. ..(my very romantic pink-peach painted class in 2006 and very dull white painted, spacious air-conditioned class yet humid and hot class because we are not allow to on the air-con class class in 2007) My beloved school, I'll be leaving soon...soon you'll be missing a very important student...ME....I shall miss it really...To never have a chance to wear a pinafore again or sit in a classroom in school or wear a nametag or running to recess or morning assembly (okay that I don't really think I will miss) or singing the school anthem or claiming marks from teachers....I'm gonna so miss it...St.George St.George will ever proclaim...honour and uphold you forever praise your name....Aut Viam Inveniam Aut Faciam. (if there's a will, there's always a way) SGGS I love you...and thank you for everything...

(REMUP day 2007...crazy bunch of girls..)
(Majlis Mohon Restu in Vistana Hotel)
(Yeah...my best buddies...)
( The old L6S1 class which is painted pink...my fellow classmates)
(Teachers and friends) (L6S1 again..) ( Hari Remup 2006....in the laman koperasi....)

Everything that has been going on...

I haven't been updating for weeks...blame it on laziness. Exam is only 4 weeks away but here I am having plenty of fun when I haven't even finish my bloody studying....I'm so stressed up that I can't seem to concentrate on doing anything that has to do with exams...now I'm also thinking what I'm going to do after my exams...what's next? I don't bloody know that....I'm so freaked out by the whole thing and I'm so going to need to stop whining and grow up. I screwed up big time in the trial examination you know...I've got 2 C's and 2A's.....Almost failed my chemistry which has come as a shock to me considering I'm so fond of it yet unable to score....Need all the time I have to study instead all I do is....have fun...

The past two days all I ever did was have fun....On Friday I went to a religious procession. It's actually called I think The Nine Heavenly Gods Festival...I was a vegetarian for nine days for the festival.....for someone who don't usually eat vegetables to eat them for nine days was pretty much a feat...okay I have been doing it for a few years now so it wasn't really anything. As a matter of fact, I enjoyed eating vegetarian food this year. The procession is nearly the same every year. I took pictures of the procession this year. Basically we are sending the gods back to the place the belong after we worshipped them (I think...) we are sending them back to sea ust like we have invited them to land during the first day...I heard from my uncle that these gods we prayed to are actually humans, a long time ago who were some sorts of pirates who steal from the rich and give it to the poor (some sort like Robin Hood eh..) some emperor ordered them beheaded when they were caught at sea because of course for stealing....so we believe that their souls still exist at sea and we pray to them.

The procession

The ship for the gods

The vehicle decorated with flowers

Then the next day, I went to a Raya open house....This is actually I think the first time I went to a Hari raya Aidilfitri open house. I ate quite a lot of food and cookies and cakes. The cookies were delicious and the cakes were really good.The open house was actually at USM by the Vice Cansellor of USM...his daughter, Suriani was one of my friends....The food was really nice and of course the house was really big and well decorated. I'm a bit envious of the ornaments there as it shows the places they travelled to and the books there are a lot. I wish I could travel to a lot oif places when I grow older.

Look ate the layer cake...it get's you mouth-watering

The cookies in the jars..

See how intricated the cake is made...the details are amazing. A lot of effort just to make the cake

Happy Birthday To ME!!!!! Haha...

Yep...its my birthday....the 21st of September.....my feeling today contrasts to my feelings on Tuesday so much. I finally calmed down after accepting the fact that I'm a sore loser and don't take failure well......Well, today's my birthday and I feel so much better. I woke up thinking "Hey it's my birthday..." I'm really honoured a lot of people remembered my birthday....those who sent those midnight smses...thank you...Those who sang birthday songs for me...thanks and of course to all those presents and angpau....thank you very much....I had a great time today.....at school a lot of people wished me Happy Birthday.....during recess I think was most shocking, my friends at school took out a brthday cake and sang in the canteen a Happy Birthday song...I ate cheesecake...yummy my favourite.....Wan Yin gave me a jelly mooncake as a gift really nice...

My mom bought home a walnut cake and creampuffs and cheese tarts for me on my sweet 19th birthday and.....oh I think I have died and gone to heaven.....but gosh all those food is really fattening....fattening but definitely heavenly haha.....In the evening I went to Hui Ting's house for a swim...I love swimming....We swam and kid around.....Once again another birthday cake and guess what...it's a cheesecake....It's really delicious and they (Hui Ting, Hui Ping, Siaw Ping, Juin and Jane) prepared pizzas, jellies, chocolates and chicken.....fattening but delicious....It was really sweet of them and they gave me a present as well....I had fun....we sang karaoke style and talked about almost everything....from primary school to now.....I think I laughed a lot today....I was happy and well that made me forget about exams and everything else....what's life without friends.......I'll never survive without them....Everyone that I want to wish me Happy Birthday did and I'm so happy no one forgot about it....Thank you so much to everyone and my birthday wish this year is that I hope everyone will always have happiness in their lives and stay happy always...

My birthday cake....

Food...food...It's yummy yet sinful...hehe

So, Happy Birthday To Me!!!!!!!!!! (It's over already...it has already passed 2 in the morning...)