I hate taking exams....Regret??? So not...

You know I really hate exams...why do we have to take so many of them anyway....The midterm examination this year is terrible....I am so sick of it....holidays finally here...two weeks is long for some people but too short for me....after the holidays I would have to go back to school and come face to face with my problems (my going to be terrible results...that is) Despair can't come any sooner than this...how can I enjoy my hoilidays with my thoughts on how I had fared??? Okay, maybe that was a bit overexaggerating....I'm not that bad...At least I think I'm not.....It is not going to be good....might be real bad...I am prepared for whatever comes...at least I hope I am....just cross my fingers and hope for the best...I always do this you know (not the crossing fingers thingy) This worrying when I can do so much better if I had studied earlier...I know I can do so much better but hey isn't that what we always say......I am always so last minute that even if I have read the topic, I can't remember all of it...as a result...Disaster...I'll be pulling my hairs over thinking how to solve the questions...Mathematics was the worst this time (Actually it is always the worst...I'm never prepared fot it) , followed by a close second, chemistry and a mere centimetre away physics...and did you know P.A (the only subject that I tought I can get an A) was terrible....I was totally not prepared for it...I thought the paper starts later and I didn't study at all...I was thinking of studying later.....but there was no later......What horrors is there to last minute studying....Regret can be experienced so vividly in my head.....I think I would be forgetting about this later though....Word of advice to all students....Never...NEVER!!! Never study last minute...it might just kill you...I might have jump off a building or hang myself or drink poison or cut myself with a knife if I haven't thought over how painful it would be to suffer before you die like that...Seriously don't be stupid (don't think of commiting suicide...they all would hurt so much...just imagine cutting yourself with a knife and slowly and painfully bleed to death that is if you haven't call for 911 for help......So just forget about it and study......trust me just study.......( This writer does not plan to study for her next term test until last minute though...she might regret it a lot later but she can't help it that she don't have the "mood" and "interest" to study.......hahahaha)

MUET....Can't wait for it to be so over...

Oh gods....i never want to take another MUET again (to those who don't know what it is...it is a Malaysian University English Test which is complusory for Six-formers to take before entering universities in Malaysia)....no more tests for me...I'm so not retaking it...unless I get very low marks then I have too...you know I thought it would be much easier but hey...I'm always wrong.....It was terrible.....considering I actually went to National Service, I didn't know what to write for the essay "Trainees in NS to be trained using firearms..agree or disagree" I really didn't know what to write.....My mind was blank...I wrote anything I could think of which wasn't much. The listening was okay but I don't know how I did...at least I think I did good...there was this passage in the listening paper which I find quite amusing because it really described me....a complusive horder (someone who keep thing like newspapers,magazine and even tickets....they keep anything they think is valuble or memorable causing big amount of junk and disterss to family members) I think I am one or not in the process of being one...when I actually listened to the passage I find myself laughing because it so described my attitude of keeping all kinds of stuff....I even keep movie tickets,concert tickets and amusement park tickets so I find it really proving I am guilty of being a hoarder....complusive one at that too...It is even catagorised as a mental illness....does that mean I am mentally ill?? Might be because I am crazy...must be a loose screw in my head... The reading comphrehension was a bit better...and I think I did good...I checked a few times and got most of it correct but I'm not sure...Next Tuesday there is another paper...the final one...Speaking paper which I so hate....I am so afraid of this paper mainly because I have to speak in fluent English to show that I am a "Great" speaker of English. That really scares me as I never get a higher score in this paper before...it always pull my scores down...I have to get so ready to speak excellent English and have a high level of speaking skills....Haiz...imagine STPM when I can't even handle this now...I'm so so so so way DEAD....The Midterms are coming too...I haven't even started studying and it is a week away...9 days to be exact...so I have to pray hard and hope I can make it...passing would be so great....Of course passing with flying colours would better...excellent in fact...hahaha