It's over.....

STPM is over...finally over...I am relieved it is over yet can't help but feeling a bit remorse thinking I should have done more for my STPM examinations. I know I could have done better if I had studied earlier. That's why I said no last minute studying. Sadly I never learn from my mistakes. Regrets filled my mind but really it's no use crying over spilled milk now. I guess I should think for the future and plan what I really want to do next. Besides, the results are not yet out......perhaps just perhaps my results would turn out well?? Okay maybe that's wishful thinking but one can do naught but hope. Right now, I just want to relax and not think for a while. Right now I just want to be selfish and think for the present. Have fun and enjoy myself....rest and be happy that's all. Because I know sooner or later I will have to face the truth that nothing will work out if I don't put in an effort. I really am envious of some of my friends who score well in exams always but I know that's because they work hard for it...they give their best in it...While me I try my best too...it's just that I feel that I wasn't as hardworking as they are and I really feel guilty for it...I guess what I'm trying to say is I really am sorry for not doing all I can from the start of Form Six but I tried my best to do what I can in order to at least try my best. So now all I can do is cross my fingers and hope for the very very best......

Days of my life....in school

School play an important role in all of our life.....we grow up in school and it has become our second home. Going to school for almost all of your life, you will feel like you have left something really important behind when you leave your alma-mater. It's where you share your feelings with friends, it's where you meet friends, learn more and understand more. Finally, it's time to leave school. After 13 years in school and more than half of my life, it's like losing a part of your heart. I feel like I have been going to school all my life. Lessons taught and lessons learn....there's still a lot to be learn but we have learn a lot from school. From my dearest primary school SK Batu Lanchang to high school St. George's Girl School...I've always been one never to be absent from school....you can see me in school whether rain or shine or in sickness or in health. I am always going to school...why you say...it's because I want to savour the moments I have in school. To be able to appreciate what the school could give to me and what I could give in return. To be able to think back and remember that I didn't miss a single thing in my school lfe. From Standard 1 to 6 then to form 1 to 5 then going to Form Six.....some people think Form Six is a bad choice but I think it's a great choice. I think going back for Form 6 turn out to be a good decision and is a great experience I will never regret....I had a lot of fun these past two years in Form six...met a lot of new friends and learn a lot more of life. I have studied....yes I did studied something, learn more of chemistry, physics, pengajian am and maths (still not really good at some of them) It was hard work yet I had a great time with all my friends and treasured those times we had- all the toilet trips, jokes, recess, club activities, performing at school (those dancing and singing is something I never thought I would have the chance to do in school) chit-chatting, exam woes and lot's and lot's of laughters....Last days of school were spend on having fun without worrying that STPM examinations is coming (thinking of it is giving me goosebumps...so I don't want to think of it now) Taking lots of pictures to remind us of the times we had and writing lots of notes and biodatas for people to be remember us.....something to treasure forever......Form Six turn out to be a weird yet fun kind of experience....whether it is having a REMUP day or Majlis Mohon Restu (some sort of blessing ceromony in Vistana...the school's rich we do this in the hotel and get to have a buffet lunch..it wasn't nice though) or having days of stressed out examination blues or events such as Sports Day, Prize-Giving Day or Foodfair.......or Glamorous Graduation Night..they are all things to be remembered......teachers helped out a lot. Whether it is the very hardworking fast-paced talking chemistry teacher Pn. Thoo or sleepy Maths classes with Pn. Muminah or droosy yet important classes with fashionable Pn. Ling, our Physics teacher...all of them are there for one purpose and one purpose only...to educate us and help us in succeeding in the future...thank you teachers very very much. I'll miss my school years but one have to grow up and find a way to return all those that teachers have once taught us to those who need them.
Friends thank you for sharing all those times with me....forgive me if I ever hurt you guys in anyway what so ever.....To my best buddies in school...Hui Ping, Mei Ling, Hui Ting, Jolyn, Phei Chuin, Wen Shan, Loo Wen, Wan Yin, Li Ling, Elora, Cavina, Melanie, Janice and everyone else thank you for being there to share these times with me....you guys are the best...I had a lot of fun...Hui Ping and Hui Ting, my best friends who shared the same passion with me with Leehom, Mei Ling with her sarcastic yet always true personality, Wen Shan who always make jokes that make people laugh and thanks for sharing those NS experiences with me, Janice who always blush, Loo Wen and Wan Yin who are always talking about anime and Japanese or Koreans, Elora and Cavina who are always so nice to people, Phei Chuin my car-pool buddy and my listener to my worries, Jolyn with her funny cute antics and craze for TVXQ and a bunch of very funny people who lighten up my life with your presence in it....nothing makes life sweeter and special than sharing it with you guys. You guys taught me to live life my way...
Form Six makes me a lot stronger.....I'm more passionate about life thanks to it....I learn to be more courageous in doing things like singing in Georgian Idol or dancing for Hari Remup. I learn how to lead as the president of Librarians in school or the president of Science Club. I learn to control traffic...hehe in my days as traffic warden...I learn to think outside the box and appreciate life. I learn that friendship can be found anywhere and is unbiased to whether age or race....I love school...I'm proud to say I LOVE SGGS......from our clock tower to our red blazing school colour to weird school funtions to annoying red-skirts prefects(no offense to my red-skirted friends) to my days as a librarian ( surrounded with books and learning to organise them...I love the smell of new books) to traffic duty in school (the chance to control the school traffic is like power to me...I can stop you from moving if I want to...hahahaha)to simply my class L6S1/U6S1. ..(my very romantic pink-peach painted class in 2006 and very dull white painted, spacious air-conditioned class yet humid and hot class because we are not allow to on the air-con class class in 2007) My beloved school, I'll be leaving soon...soon you'll be missing a very important student...ME....I shall miss it really...To never have a chance to wear a pinafore again or sit in a classroom in school or wear a nametag or running to recess or morning assembly (okay that I don't really think I will miss) or singing the school anthem or claiming marks from teachers....I'm gonna so miss it...St.George St.George will ever proclaim...honour and uphold you forever praise your name....Aut Viam Inveniam Aut Faciam. (if there's a will, there's always a way) SGGS I love you...and thank you for everything...

(REMUP day 2007...crazy bunch of girls..)
(Majlis Mohon Restu in Vistana Hotel)
(Yeah...my best buddies...)
( The old L6S1 class which is painted pink...my fellow classmates)
(Teachers and friends) (L6S1 again..) ( Hari Remup 2006....in the laman koperasi....)

Everything that has been going on...

I haven't been updating for weeks...blame it on laziness. Exam is only 4 weeks away but here I am having plenty of fun when I haven't even finish my bloody studying....I'm so stressed up that I can't seem to concentrate on doing anything that has to do with exams...now I'm also thinking what I'm going to do after my exams...what's next? I don't bloody know that....I'm so freaked out by the whole thing and I'm so going to need to stop whining and grow up. I screwed up big time in the trial examination you know...I've got 2 C's and 2A's.....Almost failed my chemistry which has come as a shock to me considering I'm so fond of it yet unable to score....Need all the time I have to study instead all I do is....have fun...

The past two days all I ever did was have fun....On Friday I went to a religious procession. It's actually called I think The Nine Heavenly Gods Festival...I was a vegetarian for nine days for the festival.....for someone who don't usually eat vegetables to eat them for nine days was pretty much a feat...okay I have been doing it for a few years now so it wasn't really anything. As a matter of fact, I enjoyed eating vegetarian food this year. The procession is nearly the same every year. I took pictures of the procession this year. Basically we are sending the gods back to the place the belong after we worshipped them (I think...) we are sending them back to sea ust like we have invited them to land during the first day...I heard from my uncle that these gods we prayed to are actually humans, a long time ago who were some sorts of pirates who steal from the rich and give it to the poor (some sort like Robin Hood eh..) some emperor ordered them beheaded when they were caught at sea because of course for stealing....so we believe that their souls still exist at sea and we pray to them.

The procession

The ship for the gods

The vehicle decorated with flowers

Then the next day, I went to a Raya open house....This is actually I think the first time I went to a Hari raya Aidilfitri open house. I ate quite a lot of food and cookies and cakes. The cookies were delicious and the cakes were really good.The open house was actually at USM by the Vice Cansellor of USM...his daughter, Suriani was one of my friends....The food was really nice and of course the house was really big and well decorated. I'm a bit envious of the ornaments there as it shows the places they travelled to and the books there are a lot. I wish I could travel to a lot oif places when I grow older.

Look ate the layer cake...it get's you mouth-watering

The cookies in the jars..

See how intricated the cake is made...the details are amazing. A lot of effort just to make the cake

Happy Birthday To ME!!!!! Haha...

Yep...its my birthday....the 21st of September.....my feeling today contrasts to my feelings on Tuesday so much. I finally calmed down after accepting the fact that I'm a sore loser and don't take failure well......Well, today's my birthday and I feel so much better. I woke up thinking "Hey it's my birthday..." I'm really honoured a lot of people remembered my birthday....those who sent those midnight smses...thank you...Those who sang birthday songs for me...thanks and of course to all those presents and angpau....thank you very much....I had a great time today.....at school a lot of people wished me Happy Birthday.....during recess I think was most shocking, my friends at school took out a brthday cake and sang in the canteen a Happy Birthday song...I ate cheesecake...yummy my favourite.....Wan Yin gave me a jelly mooncake as a gift really nice...

My mom bought home a walnut cake and creampuffs and cheese tarts for me on my sweet 19th birthday and.....oh I think I have died and gone to heaven.....but gosh all those food is really fattening....fattening but definitely heavenly haha.....In the evening I went to Hui Ting's house for a swim...I love swimming....We swam and kid around.....Once again another birthday cake and guess what...it's a cheesecake....It's really delicious and they (Hui Ting, Hui Ping, Siaw Ping, Juin and Jane) prepared pizzas, jellies, chocolates and chicken.....fattening but delicious....It was really sweet of them and they gave me a present as well....I had fun....we sang karaoke style and talked about almost everything....from primary school to now.....I think I laughed a lot today....I was happy and well that made me forget about exams and everything else....what's life without friends.......I'll never survive without them....Everyone that I want to wish me Happy Birthday did and I'm so happy no one forgot about it....Thank you so much to everyone and my birthday wish this year is that I hope everyone will always have happiness in their lives and stay happy always...

My birthday cake....

Food...food...It's yummy yet sinful...hehe

So, Happy Birthday To Me!!!!!!!!!! (It's over already...it has already passed 2 in the morning...)

September...a month of woes or joy???

This is definitely not my month this year....I always love September the most of all the months simply because it's my favourite month and it's the month of my birthday....This year I hate it. I hate it because I screwed up everything. I hate it because I am such a failure this month. I hate it because I'm failing my exams. I hate it because I know I could have done better. I have it because I didn't try my best. I hate this...Never have I despised myself so much for failing my exams...it's clearly because I was lazy and while others were striving to get better results I was sleeping all the times and not really concentrating. I hate myself for being such a moron this month...Maybe all this while for being a moron... Chemistry is my favourite subject since Form 4 but I never really done well in chemistry yet I really like it...but now I did so badly in it I just want to give up...I did so badly in all the subjects I feel I am just not good enough in this...I really want to give up now you know....I've studied for almost a year and a half in Form Six but I feel I haven't done anything here that I really think is worth it. But Form Six is a chance to go to a local university and I can't afford anything else unless I can get a scholorship which is only possible with good results...with results like mine where can I go?? Futhermore, it's a chance to prove to myself that I am good at something....that I'm good at something......I'm capable of doing something yet it seems I didn't put all my effort in and I'm so fed up of myself...so fed up with my own attitude. I take things like it is nothing yet it is something. I'm so tired of being so cheerful all the time being so optimistic...I really don't want to do this anymore...I just want to cry......I feel like crying yet I can't cry. Sometimes I just want to close my eyes and never wake up......I can't do this anymore. There's just two months left...two bloody months to exams and I'm not even prepared to face it...Let's just face the truth that I'm not smart...I'm not clever.....I'm just lazy and stupid someone who thinks she's good nut she's otherwise....Gosh I feel like dying....my heart is breaking and I feel so so down.....Life isn't all that smooth isn't it...... There's no use in stopping now....never do things in half measures.....I'm going to try but I don't what this would come to......how it would end....I just how I can try to improve myself and have more self-discipline in studying....I just wish I can concentrate and do this......

Rain...rain and keep on raining...

It's been raining for three or more days....if this continues I think a lot of places will be flooded.... I went out yesterday and well it rained too. Went to Queensbay Mall to watch a concert...it's free so I thought I'll check it out....My friend, Hui Ting drove us, four of us me,Hui Ping, Renae and herself there and we went in the mall for a meal.....first we were thinking of having McD but well since it is a Saturday evening and there's a concert going to start outside the mall, the place was pratically crowded with people. Then we decided to have dinner at Sakae Sushi.....it's a Japanese restaurant...this is actually my second time to a Japanese restaurant.... I'm pretty stingy so normally I won't go to restaurants to eat... The restaurant was cool very classy....the meal cost around RM 20...so it wasn't really that expensive as I first thought it is....the food is quite nice....I ate salmon.....salmon rice and salmon sushi...I love salmon fish I don't know why.....We took a walk around the mall window shopping......then we went out to the concert, only three of us as Renae took off shopping for clothes...she came back for the weekend from her Unversity in Perak and went out with us...it stopped raining when we went out....Power Station a Taiwanese duo started the concert...they have really good voices and well they have been in the industry for 10 years so it isn't a surprised at how good they sang....then came the Malaysian singers from The Superstar show....compared to Power Station they were really very bad...I think they are more to the looks than talent...although they don't really look that good as well.....the ironic thing is that when Power Station started the show it didn't rain but as soon as some really untalented singers come out, it starts to rain....this actually goes on again and again until the end of the concert....There were a few really talented singers in the concert such as Soler, from Macau....very handsome both singers from Soler.....also Gary Chow Ge.....he was amazing....his voice was incredible and he's a Malaysian....very few Malaysian singers have good voices and he is one of them.....I really was awed at his performance....he actually sang My Way, an English duet song alone singing the male part and the female part all by himself...and he really was super super great....then we also have Lin Yu Chong...he was really good too...I like his voice as it is really soothing....we also have Justin, Chak Tin from Hong Kong...he was preety good also....I had a great time under the rain watching the concert although some parts of the concert were spoiled by singers who sang quite badly.....the rain started quite heavily at one moment in the concert and we borrowed an umbrella from a few concert wacthers beside us....at one point we even took the banner advertisement from the concert and shield ourselves from the rain with it....it was pretty stupid and funny I know but it all seems really fun doing that.... when it is time to went back...well it was very jammed....we couldn't even come out of the carpark...we were stuck in a jam at the carpark for almost 45 minutes...everyone wants to go home after the concert and it was really jammed...Imagine being stuck in your car for 45 minutes waiting to get out of the carpark which we only were at the third floor...that's really a long time isn't it...but that's how it is.... It's still raining now...I think it won't stop till tomorrow...hopeful it will stop soon or disaster will happen....

Photos of Convo

Pictures From My Mom's Convocation In Tanjung Malim, Perak
(The one I couldn't download last week...idiotic computer..)

My parents and me at my mom's convo in Perak



My mom and me at her uni...UPSI



Don't I look cute in graduation robes...but I'm not even in uni yet..

The rose is nice right.....I look like a tango dancer with the red rose...haha

Balloons....yeah...it's time to party...oops Graduate...


See a graduation teddy bear...so kawaii!!

Isn't the little girl cute.....she looks so sweet and angelic...but with a skeleton on her blouse....ironic...hehehe


My dad....hehehe...don't he look funny in the hat...haha


Look at the flowers......so nice...too bad they die fast...


Oh ya Happy 50th Independence Day, Malaysia......Merdeka! Merdeka! Merdeka!!!!......it's tomorrow, our beloved country's independence day.....the 31st of the month...Month of August 1957...Liberty, liberty forever liberty....and remember to watch the parade on tv....my school band is in the parade performance too....haha

A trip to Tanjong Malim...for convocation

This Monday which was the 20th August 2007, I went to Tanjong Malim for my mom's convocation...yes my MOM....you did not read it wrongly...my mom has graduated from the Masters' programme.....I think that's what it is called....Masters in English Language Education...she's a English teacher.....the trip there was bloody boring and FYI there is nothing in Tanjong Malim...besides the Universiti Pendidikan Sultan Idris...my mom's uni and Proton City (where Proton cars are made) there is nothing in the town....really quiet town unlike Penang with big malls and bustling with activities and people.....there it's kind of more quiet and well since it is so near to the highway...lot's of big jumbo size lorries passing by so if there is noise then tha's vehicles only........I spend a night there in one of the hotels...it's called Hotel Bunga Raya...I couldn't sleep.....it was so near the roads and the vehicles passing by were so so noisy I can't stand it....We stayed there a night and the next morning is my mom's convo....

My dad and I....(only us both...my brother couldn't make it) bought my mom a bouquet of roses with a real cute teddy bear with a graduation hat.....but it was bloody expensive, it cost RM 50 and it was only 6 roses you know....but the flowers were really beautiful...I couldn't resist...who knew flowers were so so lovely...the roses, sunflowers and lilies...gosh they were beautiful...and there's the cute teddy bears...so adorable...I even took a pic of a cute little girl wearing a graduation hat...hehe...then there's this incident...I think it was kind of ridiculous. I was going to enter the hall where my mom's convo is held and I was stopped by the person in charge of letting us the friends and families of the graduates in......it is really idiotic of her, she actually don't alloy me to get in...you know why...because she thinks my skirt was too short and in her term "impolite"...bloody ****.....my skirt was knee length...okay maybe an inch or two above knee length and that's impolite?? I dressed up for my mom's convo with a blouse and a skirt and she said I was dressed up impolitely....to hell with her.....then she allows me to go in and you know what she told me...she told me to sit next to the thick wall so that nobody can see I'm wearing the skirt...it's really funny how some people think...reallly...

My mom's graduation ceremony was so long...I didn't know that it could be that long....at least I get to see the Queen and Princess of Perak....they were really beautiful especially the princess. Overall the trip was a mind opening trip...it shown me how some people are so unreasonable and what a convacation is all about.....many relatives are there to see their sons or daughters graduate.....seeing people wearing those graduation hats make me think when I will have a chance to really wear it....I tried my mom's clothes though hehehe...it's kinda weird on me though hahaha......I took some pictures...I think I took pictures of practically everything I think is interesting...but right now I can't put the pic up

I also just realised the government really takes a lot of toll money....every stop at the toll is really costly......I wonder what they do with the money???.......then there's this construction on the highway...the workers work so slowly you know and they block partically half the road but don't do anything....it's so stupid and lazy of this people......and the government pays them for nothing....they spend days doing construction on these roads yet nothing is really completed yet....totally stupid....

Red Cherry

Two blogs in one day...I have gone crazy...it's just that I have so much to say....although I think no one reads my blog....just myself I think to relieve what I have kept in my mind....it's quite burdening to keep it all in....

Red cherry...it' a movie on the Nazi's and their invasion of Russia....these movie is all about two Chinese children sent to study in Russia....it wass really a lot of hardship to learn Russian language and well being invaded by Germans make things even worst....the movie was just slightly graphical...it was gruesome to see children being gunned down...there was one teenager who tried to save all his friends that he was being shelled with hundreds of bullet when the German soldiers caught him.....it was horrifying...then there was the teacher who was shot in front of her students for daring to defy the orders of the Germans by asking the children to go back into class and trying to save them.....it is nothing but the truth when we are at war...the people who suffer the most are children....starvation and homeless...the movie show the torture of war...a young girl...her name is ChuChu in the movie...she was caught by the Germans and almost was killed but she survived yet she was tattoed with the symbol of the Nazi's and had to suffer the most extreme humilation.....the tattoo was tattoed to her back and she was extremely humilated by it....her suffering was just too much she actually try to erased the tattoo by scrubbing her skin to a rough wall and even trying to burn her back with a smoldering stick.....that's what war does to you....humilation and suffering...she survived till 63 yet the tattoo was still on her back...doctors try to graft out the skin but the tattoo was too big and she suffered the hardship of war even after the war ended...extreme humilation....

I didn't experience war and I never want to.....but you have to learn from the past...war brings nothing but destruction....Malaysia suffered through war too before gaining her independence. Our country suffered much to gain independence yet nowadays no one appreciate the freedom we have instead they misuse it...abuse their rights as free independent people......I use to think that way too.....but watching Red Cherry and other war films and reading newspapers makes me realise how we mislittled the importance of independence....withou it, we can't do what we want, how to rule the country and how to live if we didn't gain independence.....that what's independence has given us yet we don't appreciate it....growing up I think I learn a lot has been sacrificed for independence....it's our 50th independence day and we definitely should try to help our country in any way we can...even if our country is not good enough...you know grass is always greener on the other side....that's what you always will think.....but when we crossed the other side we'll realise it's just the same....Learn to appreciate Malaysia...we have our faults yes...lots of them but we should learn from the mistakes and help correct them not crictised ourself for it...it's funny how we crictised but never look at ourself....Sometimes I do too....I may not appreciate independence like some who experience war in the the past but I understand how hard it was....I hope one day Malaysian really understand the true spirit of Merdeka....we are unique yet we don't understand the importance of unity among all races.....You don't crictised other races' belief and culture....respect and understand......Unity is power.....we should learn to respect people's culture as they respect yours......We are Malaysia...we make what Malaysia will be....the spirit of Merdeka is up to us.....learn the meaning of MERDEKA!!!!

Ugly side of Malaysians.....

I have got lots to say yet I don't really know how to express it in words suddenly.....first of all I went to see Rush Hour 3 on Friday...it sucks....the movie was funny but it seems that the joke are mostly old ordinary joke that I feel I had seen somewhere before already.....the plot was a bit stupid and the ending....people are left hanging just like that...come on who beats down an international triad group by killing one person....what about his lower members...won't they fight back too....that's my opinion only though...youmay think otherwise...

And recently I went, I guess crazy and decided to go and watch a singing competition in PISA( Penang International Stadium Arena) First, we had to go and get the free tickets sponsored by a few companies in Penang....Myself included and two friends, we went to collect the tickets and well the bloody line was so so long....that's where our Malaysian show extreme lack of patience and politeness.....everyone was so rude that day...pushing and screaming...even an elder man I saw was pushing and when a girl reprimanded him, he said that he wants to push and it was none of her business...what was that....and those elder people say we don't have respect for them...it's them who don't have respect for us, younger generation...but that day really show a bad side of us Malaysian...I can't say I didn't pushed too because I have to admit I did too...One thing is there was no organising from the organisation in charge of the giving of the tickets and the crowd was a huge turnout...unbelievable what Malaysian could do for FREE stuff and of course the chance to see your favourite star in action is just so tempting you have to go.....like me and my friends....

That was weeks ago....I know that's kind of a long time...but this was yesterday 11 August 2007...The singing competition I was talking about....it was actually the Astro Talent AQuest Competition...very famous chinese singing competition here in Malaysian to those who don't know....the prize of this competition is a lot of money and a chance to represent Malaysia in the International Singing competition. My mom went to the competition with me....we actually went to see the guest star appearance instead of the competitors there....but I have to tell you...organising was once again a total flop out disaster....what's this....this kind of thing wasn't suppose to happen in Malaysian....what happen to first class infrastructure, first class mentality??? No wonder people and even our Prime Minister says we have first class infrastruture but third class mentality....use some brains people...the line to go in the stadium to watch the competition was super long and crowded...as a matter of fact there wasn't any line...people were squeezing to get in a door which was open partially....not only they opened the door an hour before the thing start they open it partially and everyone was screaming that it was ridiculous to not let us in in a bigger entrance. Open a bigger bloody door for heaven's sake...That's true you know.....the entrance was so small....you can't blame people for screaming or scolding....I find myself getting impatient too to get in....someone broke a door just to go in the stadium and not even one of the guards notices...I mean we have the tickets and everything yet we went in through a illegally broken down door by some bunch of teenagers just to watch a show where the winner I wanted to win didn't even won and the guest stars I wanted to see was just a small figure to see from my so unstrategic steating which was inevitable as free seating are bound to be unstrategic when you came in late like that as guards don't let you come in fast enough. If it wasn't for my desire to watch my favourite stars in action live in front of my eyes, I wouldn't have to cram in with everyone there instead I would be at home watching it on television which was also live.....my mom, my friends and I was, I can say disgusted and partly horrified by Malaysian these days....the very ugly side of Malaysian....greedy, impatient, intolerant and extreme disrespectful...well not all of the Malaysian are like that of course but these small group of people is enough to ruin our reputation as so called "warm and welcoming people"....People wake up...you want Malaysia to give you what you want you do your part be more civilised.....You know the irony of it all that we have everything and we don't appreciate them and some people who needs them can't even have it.....After watching the movie Red Cherry ( a war film of the invasion of Germans into Russia) I find that we really do lack patrotism here in Malysia...the movie was a true story and children suffered through the war, poeple dying and the agony of losing your loved ones and young very brave heroines and heroes...and have our country really lost the true meaning of Merdeka????? I don't really know.....maybe we did forget how hard it was...

JULY..a weird month and 20/07/2007...A day of surprises...

Hey...it's been a freaking weird month this month of July...There was the movie Transformer which was super cool and really awesome....Friday 13...not so unusual yet a special day people deemed as a day of bad luck...Then there's Harry Potter....The Order of The Phoenix...the movie was okay...I like a few parts but didn't like a few too....But I love Luna Lovegood in the movie and the part where Fred and George threw those fireworks were bloody amazing....then something bad happen this month...the windscreen on my car was shatterd to pieces when some idiot from my flats threw something down on my car....Then today it happen again....the car got busted once again...luckily it's not the windscreen...this time it was the car battery...the accumulator...no battery so the car couldn't start...I was shocked at first when it couldn't start....then I realise that it has ran out of battery....this car has caused nothing but trouble this month....Real unlucky these days...Now for the CLIMAX of the month of July...I have CUT my hair.....I repeat CUT it...really really short....I never cut my hair so short ever in my whole life (my whole 18 and plus plus years of living in this planet...) It was real short (at least I think it is)...I didn't really want to cut it this short actually but I guess I didn't really explain to the hairdresser how I wanted it and she gotten creative and cut it much shorter than I preferred.....a few good inches shorter than I wanted but still I think it look okay.....I like the front bangs but not really fond of the back.....at least I can't see it so I won't think to much of it....My hair grows fast so I wouldn't have to worry much about it....I am taking it as a new experience.....I finally have short hair for once...hahaha....I'm trying to be positive during the haircut...I was freaking out actually.....There was once I have cut it short but it was longer than this and that last time I cut it that length...which was when I was a kid around 6 or 7 years old, I actually yelled at the hairdresser and threw a slipper at her for cutting it that short without even saying a thing....Luckily I managed to be civilised this time....hehe...But it was actually not as bad as I think it is....so okaylah...not what I wanted but not as bad as it seems....Tomorrow's there's Bon Odori...which is a Japanese festival celebrating....I actually don't know what's it about...I think it's about celebrating the coming of spring or summer...I guess only...it might be wrong...There's a world musical festival in Botanical garden's tomorrow too....I think that will be really cool....sadly I'm not going to that...might be going to Bon Odori though...see first...did you see the double 2007 on the date...really nice huh just like 7/7/7 pretty special...I've make this day memorable by cutting my hair short...hahaha... Oh ya forgot to tell you...remember me mentioning about MUET? I have only gotten a Band 5.....it was close to Band 6......okay 15 more marks...pretty far......should have gotten that Band 6 if I haven't screwed up in my speaking test and botched up an essay in the writing paper....I know I could get a Band 6 if I try again but the next MUET is really near my STPM so I'm not taking the risk...have to be satisfied with a Band 5...not bad already....most of the students in my school also scored a Band 5 and I know some are better in English than I am....so I consider myself not too bad...( to those who don't know...there's no Band 7....Band 6 is the highest you can get from Band 1,2,3,4,5, and 6)Okay that's all....sayonara...



My brand new short hair look

070707....7 July 2007

What's so special about seven??? Lucky number seven anyone ??? This year on this very day...number seven is simply special because it's a day most the citizen of the world pledge to save Earth. To combat the climate change and fight global warming...The Earth concerts...I'm watching one right now.....seven continents....(seven again you say...seven appears everywhere) more than a hundred of concerts are being held to create awareness of saving Earth....we definitely need to SAVE Earth...all of us, I dare to say are partly helping to destroy Earth...me included. The 3R's...reduce,reuse and recycle....not only we need to do that we need to do more....Stop polluting Earth by carpooling or wasting electricity and water...Learn to help stop pollution....Then, back to the number seven...Seven...David Beckham has the number 7 when he was in Manchester United...The seven wonders of the world...why not eight or six...that's just one of the significance of the number seven....to me, today's just an ordinary day yet it seems so extraordinary simply because we all are so awed by the number 7. There's the 7-11 stores or 7 days of the week or 7-up and even the seven colours of the rainbow....seven just happen to appear in our daily lives..... and I was going to make this day a bit memorable by cutting my hair short which I never have before....I always have long hair and been trying to build my courage to cut it short for a change.....but sadly the hairsalon was booked for the day and I didn't get to cut it... Well, another day then....then, I was thinking of all the Live Earth concerts and wondering if all this concert would create more pollution to Earth?? I mean, if you go for these kind of concert, you'll see people actually throwing rubbish and empty bottles on the floor of these stadiums and all...so doesn't this cause more pollution?? Yeah, this is a huge campaign to create awareness to stop pollution and combat global warming....but in doing promotion like this don't we just create a little more problems....That's just my opinion...I don't know how things are really going in these concerts...maybe they aren't like what I am thinking about....Well, I still like the number 7.7.07....it seems so special right...it just feels so nice...hahaha....I'm crazy.....but these concerts are really nice actually...I guess it makes us feel really together and united in these kinds of concert...just imagine evryone in this world...millions of viewers are watching and enjoying these concerts.....Go earth...Save Earth...we only have one Earth you know...

200 pounds beauty......

No...I don't weigh 200 pounds...at least I don't think so...I know how I weighed in kilograms but I never converted it to pounds before... The reason I am talking about pounds is actually just commenting on a movie I recently seen. It is a Korean movie called "200 pounds". The movie was great...I never really like watching Korean movies...not that they are bad, it's just that I didn't find myself attracted to watching them...but recently it seems the Korean waves that has landed all over Asia this past few years has finally made me a fan...the movie was brilliant...besides Princess Hour, the Korean drama series that I have watch, this movie is the best I have ever seen of Korea...the movie is about a lip-syncing vocalist Han-Na who is fat and ugly who turns to plastic surgery to pursue her dreams of a career and love....the movie brought me to tears.....very few movies can ever make me do that...the theme of the story was so simple yet so complex....is beauty skin deep and does love truly conquers it all ? I find myself really into the movie simply because the acors portray the characters really well and they were amazing...don't let the posters decieve you, the actor Joo Jin-mo is actually quite handsome in the movie and Kim Ah-joong is really beautiful in skin deep sense after she remove those layers of fat(I don't know about deep inside...hehe)....some of the scenes were funny, some really touching...and the songs in the movie...WOW, is the only word for them....the songs are really nice.....definetely a must watch movie for everyone...even if you don't understand Korean, just read the subtitles. I did just that...hahaha...

Celebrating Jane's birthday.....

(In the Japanese restaurant...forgot the name...hehe)

Today can be said to be one of the most interesting days I ever had. Yes, I know it is a Friday...there's nothing special in school...same old same old stuff...but this afternoon was way interesting and downright embarassing. After coming home from school, I bath and changed then went out with my friends to celebrate Jane's birthday. We wanted to surprise her..first we went and watch Transformers....although at first I wasn't so eagered to watch the movie but in the end it was worth the RM 10 (we couldn't get student price because it is after six) Josh Duhamel was so cool in themovies...the transformers the Autobots and Megatrons...Wow...the cars they transfored from was so so way cool....the sport car was so nice....I wish I had a car like that....the story was action packed with adventure, romance (just slightly), thriller and fun...It was really nice...worth the A the Star newspaper review gave it......after that we went to eat at a Japanese restaurant....the food was good....We surprise Jane there...ok before that we did something incredibly embrassing.....Juin,Hui Ting and Siaw Ping went first to buy a cake for Jane and we went later....god knows how we went in the wrong Japanese restaurant...it was so embrassing...they actually served us green tea already and we apologised and told them we had to leave because my mom wants me home right now....how stupid was that....finally we went to the correct restaurant and ordered the food because I was so hungry...that as the first time I ate at a japanese food restaurant...it was delicious...I forgot the name of the dish I ordered but I ordered salmon teppenyaki too....yummy...the birthday cake we bought for Jane was nice too...really chocolaty delicious.....I hope Jane was surprised with our efforts....the restaurant have a really nice atmosphere I like it...the workers even sang the birthday song with us.....maybe should go there in the future with my parents....now I'm back home cosy in front of the computer....should go to bed now....kind of sleepy....Happy Birthday to you Jane...it's your birthday now...(we celebrated her birthday earlier a day...her birthday is on the 30..which is now) Mya you have a happy time with us always....I love it when we go out together like that...telling jokes and sharing each of our days although we are in different schools now....I guess that's what friends should be...to be there whether you are sad or happy....friends are important.....they play a big role in my life...well here are some pictures of today's activities we did....

(Jane...the birthday girl....

(My food...it was a really big plate of food...so RM 13 was worth it...)

Life is great for one moment only......

(The winner of Bell of the Night and me)

I got third...I got third prize in Georgian Idol.....hahaha....well I know my voice isn't good so I didn't expect to win at all...so third was okay...I even get RM 5o...just perfect to spend some money haha....It was scary, I thought I would forget my lyrics or freak out but I guess I did ok...Although getting no.3 from 4 people isn't really that good isn't it?? Think on the bright side...at least I'm not last.....That was last Thusday...Boy, was last week hectic...on Friday there's the Cross crountry running (Merentas Desa).....it's only 2.1 km but I was dying from exhaustion....but still no. 7. No bad huh, for someone who don't exercise or train before the day arrived....The school held it at Botanical Gardens and the route was like going up the hill and down the hill......I don't know how much energy I had spend trying my best to run and walk as fast as possible...That day was fun....although we had to sing in front of most of the school students due to the V.I.P s not arriving yet....he really was a Very "Important" Person for us to wait for....I saw something that should be censored that day...hahahaha.....monkeys mating.....I know it's just natural wildlife but to see that in font of my eyes ...eewww.....geli betul.....Then comes the "Prom Night" Stars of Elegance is the theme this year and well everyone was really elegant in so many ways.....everybody look fantastic in there dresses and suits. I thought I look weird...everybody look so nice, I think I don't look well enough.....

(My group of friends and me) (Claudia in white and me) (Me and Hui Ting)

Claudia was really princess-like in her white creamy gown...beautiful.....Hui Ting and Elora both looking tall and elegant in their bronze and creamy brown dresses....I find myself looking kind of dull in black...not elegant at all.....the food presentation this year was amazing...the slide shows even more brilliant....Liani the person who created it did one hell of a job....the food was okay...although I wasn't really satisfied because I did not eat enough...I wasn't even full yet.....the decorations were nice...I especially like the archway...in the shape of a star created using balloons.....This year's Belle of The Night goes to Rosa in a very beautiful golden gown(on top with me in the pic) and best-dressed is Fiona in white...she really look nice...Overall last week was great...although I'm really sad that I didn't win any lucky draws...(Siaw Ping won a mp4 player and Wan Yin a handphone...so lucky....)

(Hui Ping, me and Mr Teh, our tuition teacher haha) (Last year's Georgian Idol winner...her voice is really good)

Am I a failure...or not???

It's really funny really...these days nothing seems to feel good to me...I wish I am learning from my mistakes but I'm not. Examinations are just over and I totally flunk them....I can say I regret myself not studying more but it just seem I can't learn a lesson that last minute studying just don't work....It don't work...seriously.....but I find myself so sad that I couldn't get the results I have hope for....I didn't do well in Chemistry and I know it is my own fault....I should have done so much better....it my favourite subject for heaven's sake...my best subject and I just have to screw up this time...I was really hoping to at least get a prize for that subject....it seems I am destined not to get any prizes for as long as I am in my school...Okay maybe that was way over the board...we make our own destiny!!!....Maybe Fates lay out the roads for us to choose and it is up to us to decide which path we will go....Yes, Destiny is drafted out for us but it is up to us to actuallygo with it's plan...(okay I'm out of my topic)It's just so damn frustrating....I am KILLING myself her....I hate this...I can't concentrate...sometimes I find myself thinking too much....I go to tuition the suddenly I'm thinking about how i'll do this and that tomorrow.....am I breaking down?? Next week is probably going to be the most hectic week this year....Maybe there are still more hectic ones to come...Next week there is the Curriculum day that I have to prepare for to represent my club...then I have meetings...like the Librarians meeting and the club meeting...I'm in charge but I don't know what to do...I feel so angry that I don't know what to do...others can do it why can't I.......I hate this weakness okay..... then there's Georgian Idol...I still can't accept the fact that I have gotten into the finals...FINALS...can you believe ME...me have gotten into the finals...I am considering pulling out because I really feel I will embarass myself on stage...I'll get all tongue-tied and freaked out Big time...I don't want ot do this anymore......then there's the prom night..I have been waiting for it for a few months but suddenly I feel I don't anticipate it anymore...I don't know why....ya well I'm still thinking of my shoes,my hair and my outfit but there just something lost in the anticipation..it's like I don't have the enery the spark anymore...I feel really tired...i think I want to cry...well I'm not crying...I want to but I can't...I don't know why...My weaknesses are my key to my strengths...or are they...I'm falling apart.....this is it.....

I hate taking exams....Regret??? So not...

You know I really hate exams...why do we have to take so many of them anyway....The midterm examination this year is terrible....I am so sick of it....holidays finally here...two weeks is long for some people but too short for me....after the holidays I would have to go back to school and come face to face with my problems (my going to be terrible results...that is) Despair can't come any sooner than this...how can I enjoy my hoilidays with my thoughts on how I had fared??? Okay, maybe that was a bit overexaggerating....I'm not that bad...At least I think I'm not.....It is not going to be good....might be real bad...I am prepared for whatever comes...at least I hope I am....just cross my fingers and hope for the best...I always do this you know (not the crossing fingers thingy) This worrying when I can do so much better if I had studied earlier...I know I can do so much better but hey isn't that what we always say......I am always so last minute that even if I have read the topic, I can't remember all of it...as a result...Disaster...I'll be pulling my hairs over thinking how to solve the questions...Mathematics was the worst this time (Actually it is always the worst...I'm never prepared fot it) , followed by a close second, chemistry and a mere centimetre away physics...and did you know P.A (the only subject that I tought I can get an A) was terrible....I was totally not prepared for it...I thought the paper starts later and I didn't study at all...I was thinking of studying later.....but there was no later......What horrors is there to last minute studying....Regret can be experienced so vividly in my head.....I think I would be forgetting about this later though....Word of advice to all students....Never...NEVER!!! Never study last minute...it might just kill you...I might have jump off a building or hang myself or drink poison or cut myself with a knife if I haven't thought over how painful it would be to suffer before you die like that...Seriously don't be stupid (don't think of commiting suicide...they all would hurt so much...just imagine cutting yourself with a knife and slowly and painfully bleed to death that is if you haven't call for 911 for help......So just forget about it and study......trust me just study.......( This writer does not plan to study for her next term test until last minute though...she might regret it a lot later but she can't help it that she don't have the "mood" and "interest" to study.......hahahaha)

MUET....Can't wait for it to be so over...

Oh gods....i never want to take another MUET again (to those who don't know what it is...it is a Malaysian University English Test which is complusory for Six-formers to take before entering universities in Malaysia)....no more tests for me...I'm so not retaking it...unless I get very low marks then I have too...you know I thought it would be much easier but hey...I'm always wrong.....It was terrible.....considering I actually went to National Service, I didn't know what to write for the essay "Trainees in NS to be trained using firearms..agree or disagree" I really didn't know what to write.....My mind was blank...I wrote anything I could think of which wasn't much. The listening was okay but I don't know how I did...at least I think I did good...there was this passage in the listening paper which I find quite amusing because it really described me....a complusive horder (someone who keep thing like newspapers,magazine and even tickets....they keep anything they think is valuble or memorable causing big amount of junk and disterss to family members) I think I am one or not in the process of being one...when I actually listened to the passage I find myself laughing because it so described my attitude of keeping all kinds of stuff....I even keep movie tickets,concert tickets and amusement park tickets so I find it really proving I am guilty of being a hoarder....complusive one at that too...It is even catagorised as a mental illness....does that mean I am mentally ill?? Might be because I am crazy...must be a loose screw in my head... The reading comphrehension was a bit better...and I think I did good...I checked a few times and got most of it correct but I'm not sure...Next Tuesday there is another paper...the final one...Speaking paper which I so hate....I am so afraid of this paper mainly because I have to speak in fluent English to show that I am a "Great" speaker of English. That really scares me as I never get a higher score in this paper before...it always pull my scores down...I have to get so ready to speak excellent English and have a high level of speaking skills....Haiz...imagine STPM when I can't even handle this now...I'm so so so so way DEAD....The Midterms are coming too...I haven't even started studying and it is a week away...9 days to be exact...so I have to pray hard and hope I can make it...passing would be so great....Of course passing with flying colours would better...excellent in fact...hahaha

SGGS Musical Concert

It was a very hectic day...our school's Musical Concert. The Student Council spent a lot of time preparing for this concert and everyone hope that it will turn out to be a huge success. It was what I would describe as a Great success...preparing for it was hectic...everyone was working hard to make this event the best ever, so a lot of energy and effort was put into it...especially those in Student's Council and of course the performers. I was one of the performers....I was a dancer in the concert....We are called the Senoritas.....sexy name huh...haha....The concert tickets were priced at RM 20...a lot of people including me...thought the tickets wouldn't sell out....luckily my assumptions were wrong and the night sessions tickets were sold out...there still was the afternoon session...the tickets were not really selling so they sold it for RM10 and well you can say the tickets sold were half of the night session's. I had lots of fun dancing in the cincert....I freaked out but luckily I didn't make any huge mistakes in my steps.....besides that, the hall..(we hold the concertin Dewan Budaya USM...in collaboration with USM)...was quite dark so I don't really have a good view of the audience which tome is a good thing as I wasn't that scared....(you can't be scared if you don't see anyone can you...haha) It was an amazing concert...thanks to all those behind the scenes workers...the Student's Councils....A fantastic night and afternoon I shall say....performances on that day were just fairly good...some were not so good...like the singing(some were off-key...terribly embarassing to me...)..some were boring..(like keroncong...people almost fell asleep)...some were amazing..(like the acapella...indian dance and our dance hehe...)...and some simply inspiring..(like the hip-hop break dancing....cheerleading...asmara dana dance). Overall the concert is one great success...at least that is what I think...

Exams Over...yeah...Holidays over too...Sobz Sobz..

It's been two weeks since exams are over. I did real bad...okay maybe not that bad...I did real bad for physics but chemistry was okay...still haven't got maths and P.A yet...I wonder how I did in MUET? Did I wrote that I got into Georgian Idol's semifinal? I was saying I wouldn't make it pass the first round right? Haha..it seems I sing even better than I thought I sang...but I don't plan on continuing...definitely no since I am freaking out. After exams there was a week break. I went on a trip to KL and Genting during that week for 3 days 2 nights. The School Traffic Wardens organized a trip so I went since I'm part of the wardens too. The journey was okay...not that fun when I always go to KL-Genting but it was okay. The trip was a bit tiring since we went with a tour guide and everything is scheduled properly to ensure perfect timing. I didn't have time to shop not even for a novel...considering how much I love reading novels, it was a bit sad....nevertheless, I can buy them in Penang too just that in KL there are more choices. We reached there a bit late but first, e went on the Eye On Malaysia Ferris wheel which was really nice...the scenery was amazing at night...the lights...wow...
The next day we went to KLCC. I went up the Petronas Twin Tower for the first time in my life. The view was even more fantastic. It doesn't feel a bit scary but really fun to be so high up. We went to PetroScience which I went before a few years ago. It was fun as we get to learn a bit on Science. Later that afternoon we head up to Genting Highlands. When we were at Genting, I actually took a ride that I never have been able to go up since I was real scared. I'm kind of proud I went on it since I felt a bit apprehensive at first but it was fun. I felt like I was floating on the Space Shot. It was like there's no gravity on the ride. I'm glad I conquered my fears since it was fun. Overall the whole trip was fun just not as fun as I expected it to be. I hardly had any sleep since I can't sleep...I don't even know why...maybe I feel a bit unused to the surroundings.

I bought a few things like a pencil box, some earrings and food...hahaha...going to trips are way costly I decide to save up money again in order to be able to buy my novels...I so miss them..reading novels I mean..(I practically read all my novels at home a few times each...some even more than dozens of time...I need new ones to read) I put up a few picture of my trip...how do i look nice or not...so give some comments...hahaha

15 days pass by so fast....CNY is coming to an end

Yesterday, I went to the temple with some of my friends. It was way crowded. Many people were swarming around praying for health and wealth...i think....(I mean isn't that what most people pray for...) It was really merry and well noisy...There were even fireworks...they were really nice but really loud.....we went to the Tua Pek Kong temple in Tanjung Bungah...I remember going there once but it was not as crowded as yesterday.....We went there to see something I never seen before....there was this ceromony which many Chinese believe is like fortune telling I think....the joss sticks were combined together and I think they will fan it till it flames up....the flames represent the economy of the year....It was interesting as I never know about this kind of things....the flames will appear after fanning.....if you believe in this, rest assure the middle and end of this year will be having a very good economical status....so maybe you can start investing now in shares or accomidities to earn more money......I have quite a fun time going out yesterday.....I even eat a bowl of dessert...yummy....CNY is ending as today is already the fifteen day which is the Chap Go Meh.....throwing oranges is today's tradition for all unmarried ladies, maybe I should try?? Hahaha....I don't really think that kind of thing will work in the society these days...or maybe they do...How would I know I never try it....I rather stay at home and enjoy the luxuries my television and computer can give...hehe

OMG....Did I did what I think I did?!?!!!!???

Oh My God!!!!!...I can't believe I actually did something so crazy that I thought I would never do ever ever in my life......Ok it's not a very huge news or important but it is something I thought I would not have the courage to do......I actually went to the Georgian Idol audition...(it's my school's version of American Idol...though there's no judges like Paula or Simon) They have actually force almost every class to sent one representative and guess what....I got chosen...me and my blabbermouth to be singing all the time in class....It was real scary...it was not a closed audition and everyone can see you singing....I actually suck at singing although I love to sing.....It really freak me out to go up stage and actually sing, (it took me more than 20 minutes to think over my stupid decision) after all I'm a bit stage fright.... When I finally decided to go up, my heart was beating like hell......I sang Lucky by Britney Spears and I know my voice was not nice but hell, I gave it a shot...I don't want to get in the finals anyway....I might be laughed at by everyone...It is way too scary to go again.....the finals will be in front of everyone in school...so I won't do it even if I got chosen (not like they are going to chose me...I was bad...not really nice voice ok...) Now that it is over, I think it was a shot worth doing...I will probably never do things like this again (Hmm...maybe try out for Malaysian Idol....Superstar...definitely not) I have to say thanks to Hui Ping....for actually supporting and encouraging me to go up stage and sing...but a part of me wants to kill her for giving my name in the audition...(every class is compulsory to send one rep...) But well then again, I'm glad for the experience and that the experience is over. So now I can live in peace.....Phew...we won't know the results of the auditon yet but I hope I'm not chosen.....after all I'm bad in singing and stage fright can really kill me...I'll just embarass myself up there.... This week must be a week of surprise, surprises.....A few days ago, I joined the Science and Maths quiz...again I was force to join because the teacher written down my name.....I was just as freaked out for the quiz as I was to the audition...though maybe not that freaked out because the quiz was a more minor thing compare to the audition....I was really scared when they asked me the first question of the quiz...did you know what they asked..."Name the seven colours of the rainbow" I was a bit shock by the question for being a bit to simple but still quite tough...Luckily I knew the answer and got it right...there were many questions given...we join the quiz in group chosen by the teacher and guess what...I'm the team leader...teacher really think I'm good...not really right??....because I'm not. Questions given were simple question yet tough as in if you are not vast in your knowledge of science and maths then you wouldn't know.....like how much is 1 tonne in ounces or which planets are without moons or where is your funny bone.....I don't even have an idea of what the answer is....Luckily or unluckily, my team won a spot to the finals but guess what again....the finals are to be held in the hall in front of the whole school....time for another stage fright again....haizz....at least this time I have many people in my group to support me if I don't know the answer or freaked out......

Celebrating CNY with my friends....

Chinese New Year is already at it's fourth day...11 days to go...Collecting angpau this year seems to have lessen a lot less...Want more angpau so I can buy more novels and buy stuff...I take back what I have written that day about CNY being all a bore....It can be fun too...hehe...Yesterday, I went out with my 8 other friends, my sisters...hahaha....a gang of crazy girls we are... It was nothing much but it was quite fun... We went to see a movie called 'Lady Iron Chef'. Typical Chinese movie...basically a pretty easily predicted storyline but with popular actors in it...quite funny....It's been really long since we ever gone out like that...sometimes there will be only a few of us but this time everyone was there. So it was sort of an reunion..... everytime we go out...we would find somewhere to talk and gossip around.....this time was no difference but finding a place to chat is harder this CNY days as almost everywhere is full of people...we went to eat at FoodLoft...never went there before...looks really classy and although we have to walk a bit far to order food, still their services were good...the waiters are kind of helpful....food is a bit expensive though...(actually not really that expensive, just that I'm really stingy...haha) It was too classy so we didn't talk and laugh loudly like we usually do. The food was quite nice...I still prefer Breeks... So we went down to the food court and talk...can you believe we didn't buy any food there but we just sat and talk and talk.... It was really nice to have such a great group of friends....nowadays we seldom see each other...(exculing those I see everyday in school) as we are in different places like Angelyn in KL, she will soon be going to Canada to study...will really miss her jokes and stories...then there's Jane, Juin, Siaw Ping and Wei Ping who probably further their studies in KL...then it will be harder to see all of them....me I haven't really thought of where to go...but I really like staying in Penang so I don't know yet...where to go...I really hope our friendship could last forever....

Happy Chinese New Year...Gong Xi Fa Cai!!!

Happy Chinese New Year to everyone who is celebrating this CNY 2007, the year of the boar or Pig. It seems there is a lot of decorations of piggy in the market. God, they look really cute I have to say...though I am not to fond of them...I much prefer teddy bears.....this CNY haiz...I feel kind of bored....You won't believe it won't you....feel bored on CNY??? I do feel really bored this year...I look forward to this time of the year every year...(getting angpau or redpackets really is something to look forward for...haha) but it seems this year CNY has lost it's meaning to me. I mean really isn't CNY all about family reunion and gathering of family and friends...laughter and togetherness? This year I see my relative who I only see once a year when I go back to my old home in Tanjung Bungah....it is nice to go back once in a while to remember the moments I have there but they, my relative seems more and more foreign to me...(seeing people once a year only can do that to you right? ) Reunion dinner? I have dinner with my parents and my brother...is that called reunion? I practically see them everyday.....why can't all my relatives like my aunt and uncles gather together for a really big reunion dinner like what I see on tv? See nowadays CNY has really lost its true values and meaning...nowadays all teenagers care are buying new clothes, new shoes, getting ang paus and well eat and have fun...so is CNY nowadays really about family togetherness? Geez...I'm like doing a lecture...basically I am not saying I don't buy new stuff or have fun...I do...I even play mahjong with my cousins ...hahaha...I actually don't even know what I'm saying...maybe it's just me who feel a bit alienated...my relatives don't I think...they still talk and laugh around...maybe it's just me have lost the meaning of CNY ??? Well Happy Chinese New Year to everyone and may you have a wonderful meaningful brand new year....I'll try to enjoy my CNY like I do when I was a kid...( I tend to think too much now that I am older...like now...) I should start having fun and don't stay glum.....Haiz.... Enough of grumbling... Gong Xi Fa Cai everyone....

Watch any movies recently....CNY is coming...

Last week....I went and watch 'the Holiday' in the cinemas. It was out a few weeks ago but I didn't have a chance to see it till last Friday. I must say that I don't expect it to be such a good movie. The script of course was interesting....the plot of the story was a bit unusual...and I can't say I am fond of any of the actors in this film....but this band of actors did not fail to mesmerize me with their words and the way they act. The story was really good...I really loves the part that Jude Law, one of the main actor in the film expresses his feelings to Cameron Diaz in the film.... It was really sweet and romantic. Then there was this scene which actually make me cry and touch me real deep in the heart....The part where Iris ( Kate Winslet) took a very old ( when I mean old I mean the age...not long time friend) Arthur Abbott to his award receiving. It was so touching when he walk in to the auditorium and everyone stood up and gave him a standing ovation...I can't help but shed a tear at that scene...This movie was really good and really worth watching... The whole film was better than a lot of films I watch and I must say it was funny, romantic and meaningful at the same time. I really have a great time watching it. Besides watching a movie last week, I went shopping...I only bought a baby-t which is purple in colour...it's quite nice...add to my collection of clothes for chinese new year hehehe....Talking about Chinese New Year I can't really wait for it...It is 4 days away and I'm so excited...I am in desperate need for some holiday and some time to get money and have fun....
But still I have not finish my homework and clean my room...I'm in deep trouble....everything happen in the same time...I am getting sick because of the hot humid weather and I am so tired to do anything lately....Haiz that is why I can't wait for the CNY to come....It better come real quick I can't wait LOLs....okie I got much to say but suddenly I can't remember what to blog....haha better log out to do my homework....tata.....

Beauty is skin deep....really??

Ok...what's the title all about you say...It's actually my MUET assignment. It is really terrible...the assignment was giving about a month ago and I haven't do it....I actually have to write a set of lyrics with the theme Beauty Is Skin Deep....We have take a song and change the lyrics into our own song. Tha's the bad part...I don't even know what to write on Beauty Is Skin Deep...I spend more than 5 hours searching for stuff on beauty is skin deep and all I get on the internet is about facial treatment, beauty spa and all kinds of beauty products...I still don't really get it...What is beauty really....Is beauty truly skin deep...some say beauty is skin deep but ugly is too the bone...but if you say everyone is beautiful in their own way then why the ugly part? I just don't know what to write....It is really important to me that I write something good because really I'm totally 'kiasu' and I want it to be some great lyrics....Aiyaa...life is confusing.....I have tons of homework but still spend so much time on the net....still this is so much better than writing essays or doing assignments....Haiz... better start doing my homework before I get killed by my teachers tomorrow.....

Gaining and losing....

Last Saturday the 27 of January 2007, I did something I would not usually do....I went to this MyFm deejay show in Gurney Plaza...they were stopping in Penang for some activities with prizes and games...I actually went there...alone......I can't believe I could be standing there for around 3 hours watching people win some prizes and actually went up stage to play myself....that was something I would not usually do...I was so embrassing on stage...did you know the game where they put flour in and a ping pong ball on the top and you have to blow the ball out of the bowl....I actually have to do it and guess what......I totally embrass myself on stage by not only not blowing out any ping pong balls but getting flour all over my face and neck.... Luckilyt there give some consolation prizes to "losers" like me....I was really pathetic but hey I won lots of stuff...a cap, a t-shirt, notebook,pen and the best one a RM 50 voucher to Padini...Now I can buy more new years' clothes......haha.....if I consider this lucky then well consider today bad luck...I lost RM 10....I'm so sad....I am already broke and I lose money...Haiz.....sobz...My friend is so lucky, you konw...she went to Rain's concert and maybe she's going to Lee Hom's as well....how I wish I could go to Lee Hom's.....maybe I could if I got a lot of angpau money...let's hope so.... Recently there's this really sad new about a Taiwan artisse losing her life in an accident...a car crash...she was in a coma but she passed away later.....she was really pretty and she acts really well....I hope there will be no more of this really sad thing happenning this coming new year......May this coming Chinese New Year everything be well and everyone have a happy life....

Homework, homework and lots and lots of homework....

Ughh.....these days it seems all I ever do is homework, tuition and school. I barely have time to spend doing something relaxing like now. I finally found some time to blog. The Chinese New Year is coming....Yeah...I bought a lot of new clothes...need new shoes though...well back to homework...lately teachers are giving a lot of homework everyday...there's Maths, then Chemistry, Physics, Muet and even P.A.....I haven't even completed one there's already another....then there's sports practices and co-curriculum activities and three tuitions...it so tiring these days....Luckily I can find some time to rest watching tv or go online...or not I would probably end up going crazy...I'm already at the brink of craziness as I keep wondering whether I can handle STPM or not...Maybe it was a bad desicion...then again I don't know...see I'm really going bonkers....I need a break...Chinese New Year is coming fortunately...I can spend time doing nothing but collecting angpau and eat and sleep...haha...I hope there's no homework for Chinese New Year...teachers can give a lot of homework for holidays you know.....Thinking of collecting angpau makes me think of this project we have in school...We are having a present gifting project to the flood victims in school...it really is a brilliant idea to give kids and children something...we put things we want to give them in nicely wrapped shoeboxes filled with notepads, sweets, pens, clothes and anything you like to give them...So it was really meaningful....to be able to help out in a way....Haiz..I'm so tired already...need a nap...just came back from school at 2 something and played computer at 3 something till now....so Tata...want to go have a zzzzzzz........

Busy busy school....

Its been two weeks since I've started school again. I can't believe how much hectic school would be. I guess in the holidays I forgot how busy life at school would be. There are lots of homework these days....Haiz, since I'm in Form Six homework are a lot....These days I don't even know what I'm busy about. Well, first its the class noticeboard then there's the Science Club....Library duty......Traffic warden duty and well tons of unfinished homework and not to forget projects. Traffic duty was fun because I can have a chance in directing people's car whether to stop or to go...it's fun being in charge of controlling the traffic and I like that. Then, I have this really weird but unique MUET project where I have to write a set of lyrics for a song. We have to create our on set of lyrics on a chosen kind of music we want...I've chosen the title 'Beauty is skin-deep' but the truth is I don't know what to write. Ya, I know what it means and everything but what words to use? Anyone whose willing to help me?? Then, there's this Physics presentation which we actually have to present in front of the whole school...really scary huh.....public speaking really isn't my thing...we haven't even complete the presentation yet but I really hope it turns out okay....There is also the Pengajian Am assignment like writing essay on PLKN and a presentation on Kenegaraan.....there are so many things to do but here I am spending some precious time blogging....I'm too lazy to start...I would be able to finish them if I am not dilly-dallying....too bad I'm someone who really does thing slowly....I hope next week would not be as hectic because I HATE it......