How to spend time wisely???

Now that it is the holidays, I am wondering how I could spend my time? I considered working but I have tuition classes almost three days a week...working definetely will not suit my time. So now I am pratically spending those days I don't have tuition online and playing computer games. Is this the best way to spend my holidays? I would said a BIG NO.....Going out with my friends can be considered an option but since most of them are busy with their college life and some with their own activities I guess I have to find some entertainment myself. ..Studying is an option too but who studies in this holiday season?? Well, actually those who are hardworking do right...but I am one of those lazy bums....Maybe I can go help some charity team or something....or I could just surf the internet all day...haha..its a better choice to me....Seriously I am talking crap again... Anyway lately I have been a bit not myself....sleepless nights have got me all crazy...(imagine been awake still at 4.30 a.m.)my sleep routine has gotten all weird...I can't sleep at night and I get all sleepy in the evening so I end up sleeping in the evening and can't sleep at night...Gawd it's really bad for health and you can get fat...I don't want to get fat.... Talking about being fat...recently I went to a yoga class..my friend took me there for the first free trial. It was really fun and I wanted to go again but I can't afford it...Its around RM280 for ten sessions. It was really enjoyable but...there's always the but right...but I got all achey my whole body after that...I'm still aching...I even went hiking in the morning before I went to yoga at the evening...Why trhe sudden urge to do so many exercise you say...I guess because I am really out of shape..I should start practicing yoga myself..(hmm..great way to spend time right...should do it..) Its good for health and I can relax myself...so maybe I should do it more often..(I saw many aunties and career women there doing yoga even my friend's mom do it real well..so maybe I should start) I guess enough of me talking crap..yaya... bye...

Holidays here....

Hey hey..its finally the school holidays...yeh..yeh...haiiz...its not that fun really. Since next year is already STPM...have to work harder...but still not studying...pathetic huh. The final day in school this year was really fun...we have a class party with another class and took funny weird pictures...remember I said before that I'll show you my class which is painted in pink and peach and is so romantic...well actually its kind of a dark class...well here it is..haha...we took lots of pictures that day...we made all those funny looks that we laugh at ourself....I've always said that I never want to go back for Form 6 and how hard it is but actually going back to Form 6 now made me realise how dependent I am on my teachers and friends...I guess a part of me is not independent enough to face life in college where you have to study yourself.....I needed the time in Form 6 to truly grow up and be more independent. I can't depend on anyone to decide what's good or bad in my life...I need to start to think of my future...I really want to be a pharmacist although now I'm studying physics so I think I will probably study Applied Science or Chemical Engineering but I don't know what I want to do yet...going back to Form 6 is a correct decision I think but I guess I have to work harder because I'm kind of lazy...hehe...So kamate to me !!!!

Why some thing are so hard to let go of......

I went to a friends' party today...it was her birthday so we went to celebrate...we played a lot of childish games like Heart-attack and 7-Up....it was kind of fun.....we were like little kids playing all those funny games...her boyfriend was so romantic....he actually gave her a necklace inside a box which he have put inside the cake he brought for her. Suddenly that makes me sad...I wonder why I can't find someone too.. Maybe I'm destined to be lonely... I have a crush on someone...someone I know very long already...I don't know why but it seems I can't forget him..maybe i am just a person too stuborn to let go of someone easily...Maybe I should just tell him how I feel and then just let go...I don't want to hang on something that never will happen anymore...but I am so afraid I will lose him as a friend...I just don't know what to do.....i seriously sound pathetic and I guess I never imagine I would still like him after all these years..I have a crush on him since years ago and gosh that seems so long already since I am already 18....I hate myself...really... just let go...but I just can't...why???? Haiz I should actually get over it...

School Cultural Day, REMUP

Yesterday, my school held a cultural day which was called Hari REMUP....although I actually don't know what REMUP stands for...hehe. Students had to wear traditional clothing to school and many i saw wore very beautiful and colourful clothing. Some wore kebaya, cheongsam, sari and others. The whole school was like a parade of colours. It was really wonderful. All classes were asked to bring food and hold their own parties. There were even cultural perfomances that day.I myself have been included in the cultural dance performance. There were many performances that day such as a sketch, Indian dance, Boria and even a fashion show. I wore a blue and white kebaya to school. Everyone said I look like an air stewardess...hahaha.... I was quite buzy that day since I have to prepare for our chinese fan dance, so I did not have much chances to take pictures with my friends or eat all the delicious traditional food. I had my hair tied up very nicely by a friend who i must say have such talent in tying hair. Her hair tying skills are superb..myhair was really nice that day. I wore a samfu and a pair of slacks for the dance. I was really nervous but luckily I did quite well in the dance even though we have only practiced for about a week. So I was really proud of myself since I am normally a very slow learning clumsy person.It was really exciting to be able to see all kinds of different traditional clothes and people. It makes me feel really proud about our Malaysian culture and diversity. Despite our differences in race, culture and language, we are a group of united people. So unity is really power.....I love our multi-cultural independent country...Malaysia BOLEH!!!